Life or Death

I wonder what impackt i would have on my friends and family if i killed my self? Do they really care about me? people tell me that my life is good and i have alot too live for, lies…
do i really have all that mush too live for? no one see’s it though my eyes and see’s what i see. im not happy at all in life. for the first time ive left all my friends too go be alone.
they follow me and ask why i left, and i say because…
am i the only one who see’s what i see? or am i all alone in this world… when i die im going too hell, mabey i should better my self… ive tryed befor but i just end up in the same place… wondering if i should kill my self…