Looking Apon the Past

We all do that… look at our past. Some cry,others create a flood of anger. Others…decide to die at that very moment. Thats what he did. He just couldn’t take the taughtings or the new schools anymore. Just because of how he was.

He was a goth,don’t get me wrong. But in a school of 56,000 he was the only one.(it sounds weird but it’s true) He had very worried parents because his bedroom had bloodstains on it the carpets. Everyone hated him… they worte things on his locker. They would beat him to the ground. It came to the point where he kept a gun hidden. Until one day.
That was the highlight of the boys wrist cutting life. Another like him. She was tall and slender with snowy white skin. The black hair and nails with those skin tight jeans and the fishnet shirt. Everyone started bickering. Only he didn’t. He feel in love with her.

They instantly became friends. She would spend the nights at his house and he would do the the same. Untill she asked to see his old yearbooks. He gave them to her and looked at the as well. Soon the feeling of hate and confusion took over again. He wanted to die again and no one will stop him. Not even her.
After she lefted the next day he took his fathers back pills and took them one at a time. His heart beat became faster more and more. His head was swilring. He wasn’t in pain he was laughing the cold laugh that you hear in movies. He said his final good-byes and I’m sorry’s and he wished her well. He told her he loved her and he’ll protcet her from hurt. Then he blancked out. THis mind fell apart piece by piece. Then finally went blank. His heart took one last beat in this world then stopped. He was gone.
He left a screaming mother and and a crying father. He left sneering peers and a lonley girl without a friend. Maybe if they knew… then he wouldn’t have done it. Soon after the girl he had loved transferred schools and later killed herself by jumping infront of a car.
I don’t know what the meaning of this story is but I think it’s that if people knew how much words had hurt he wouldn’t have died and she wouldn’t have lost a friend and her life because of it.

By Notyourbeautyqueen

I used to write on Darkness about two years ago, and now, after many years of being in the shadows...I decided to come out again