As he sat on the damp Earth with her, he felt a throbbing pain throughout his lonely heart. A single tear slid from his dark eyes and down his cheek. When she made no response he just wiped the tear away, as if ashamed. Oh how he wanted her to just hold him close, just once.
“Why couldn’t you stay?” he asked in a whisper.
She made no reply again and he frowned.
“You know I love you, you know I need you,” he whispered again.
Hearing nothing for the third time, he turned to where she lay and touched her icy cold plaque. The touch of the cold metal sent a shiver up his spine and images of that tragic day flooded his mind.
It was about a week ago and he had been walking home from school. Just passing the bakery he heard his name called out by an angel’s voice and he turned around to see the sight that kept him alive every day.
“I have something to tell you!!” she called out from the other side of the road.
He frowned wondering what it could be but smiled. It couldn’t be anything bad; she was smiling.
He studied her entire being for a split second and smiled. He studied her crystal blue eyes, her medium length red hair, her porcelain skin and her figure. He had loved her for a good few years but had never been able to tell her. They were the best of friends and he didn’t want to ruin that. Also he didn’t believe he had a chance; she was out of his league.
He then watched her quickly tuck her red hair behind her ear and walk over to the crossing, she carefully walked into the middle of it. How was she to know some drunk would come speeding around the corner?! If only she had waited a minute or two….
Time slowed right down as he dropped his bag and ran over to her, hoping that he could just push her out of the way and be the hero she may want to love one day. But he knew deep down he couldn’t get there in time; the car had hit her before he had even reached the crossing.
It hit her with such an impact it sent her delicate body into the air and about 10ft in front of the car. He clutched his stomach as if he had been hit himself, the sight before him tore him apart inside. It felt like someone had punched him right in the heart. How could someone hurt such an angel?! How could someone be so stupid?! Why hadn’t she waited just a minute or two? She can’t die, right?! All of these questions zoomed through his mind before he let out a sudden burst of emotion.
“No!!” he cried out as her body hit the road.
He ran over and knelt down beside her. The sight alone nearly killed him. Blood trickled down from her head and her nose. Her eyes were full of tears of pain and fear as she looked up at him.
He stayed with her until the ambulances came, not letting go of her hand. Her friends all circled around her, fearing for her life and paramedics doing the best they could at the time but her eyes were still fixed upon him. Before her final breath she spoke to him with a weak but still heavenly voice:
“I needed to tell you…”
“Shh…it’s ok,” he said.
“No I need to tell you…I love you, I didn’t want to ruin our friendship but I needed to tell you,” she whispered.
“I love you too,” he told her.
He stayed like that until her very last breath. She then closed her eyes and that was the last time he saw such a beautiful and crystal blue.
And now he still stayed beside her.
He took his hand away from the plaque and began to silently cry while talking to her:
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. I should’ve gone to you. You didn’t need to go, I need you.”
His tears were choking up his words and he even struggled to breathe.
(Forgive me by Evanescence)
I’d give anything now
to hear those words from you
Each time I say something I regret I cry “I don’t want to lose you.”
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.
‘Cause you were made for me
Somehow I’ll make you see
How happy you made me
I can’t live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive
So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I’m screaming inside that I’m sorry.
“I love you, please come back…..”
He placed his fist on the fresh, damp Earth and let his tears spill and sink into the ground, secretly hoping that it would bring her back. When nothing happened he took out a single red rose, placed a single but loving kiss onto it and placed it onto the Earth.
“I will always love you,” he promised.
That night he took a knife and dragged the sharp blade across both wrists vertically, hitting the veins and letting his blood spill on the floor. He slipped into unconsciousness within minutes and tragically died within a pool of blood before he was found. In his pocket was one single wish; to be buried beside his first, true love.