love is pain

you said you loved me and i believed you but then its like hey i like you and all but were thru i cried all days and wept all nights I’d say without you my life’s not right id pull the blade closer to my wrist slice thru it then make a fist id sit for hours staring at mirrors looking at myself wanting to die running from myself trying to hide, people would say its not worth it its just not but id look at them and say he was everything your not id try to look past you when we met on the street but it is you that holds my heart to keep you hold and fold and mold my heart then shake and take and break my heart i try so hard to win you back but its the strength you took that i lack so now the guns loaded and in my hand i pull it closer to your head i slowly take another breath if not for him we’d both be dead he took the gun away from me saved me and you both from misary i watch the shells fall to the floor i realize its not you but he i adore he was always there when i cried you werent it was you that would lie who would rather get high then hear me cry you would always seem to ask me why but never really understand now i hope you see he is the man i want him to be you are no longer a part of me he is the one i want to see, to hold and love in my arms like no other even my own mother