midlife breakdown at the age of 13

Ok, some people might now say that i don’t really know what i’m talkin about, cuz of my age, but please don’t judge, cuz if you’ve known me for a long time, you will also know that i study everything i’m interested in, and (now i swear i’m not being big headed), could have a conversation with an adult about anything.

It is so hard to be a vampyre, lust for blood, ALSO be a witch, and still be at secondary school. Especially when suddenly, everyone mysteriously finds out about the Witch part and will not talk to me, giggle and point at me from a distance, and when they walk past me say, ‘ooh, make it rain’, just quiet enough so as no teachers can hear. This is my second secondary school, and the whole of my last school now knows EVERYTHING about me because of someone i highly reguarded as a friend, but turned out to be a lying traitor and turned her back on me so she could be in the spotlight. Oh help. How am i going to cope in this new school with bitchy girls who tease me on a subject i cannot talk about with the teachers? i cannot talk about vampirism with teachers for what i hope are obvious reasons, but i cannot talk about being teased about wicca because i recently got my pentacle convescated, and when i told the teacher what religion my symbol stood for the teacher sneered at me and said, ‘yes, of course, i’m sure it is’. This happened despite the fact my school apparently welcomes ANY religion. Of course, not all of the pupils at this school are bad, but my two close friends were told by teachers to keep away from me. I was so hurt by this. One friend walked away from the teacher, and the other one stood up, and told the teacher it was her right to choose whichever friends she wants. What am i going to do and how am i going to survive until sixth form?

By Alenka

Life sucks and so do I.

4 comments

  1. I know what your going through, because I’m a 15-year-old vampyre(or vampire) and I also practice the wiccian/pagan religion. I should suggest telling your teacher and/or friends that Wicca actually focuses on love and nature and to respect all living/non-living things, rather than the satanic, evil reputation that everybody has pinned to the religion. But if that doesn’t work, tell your teacher(s) that he/she’s nothing but a shallow, unevolved, stereotypical human who rather believe lies than the truth. Tell the same thing to the kids. And if the kids still bother you after that, just tell them to fuck off. Yeah, I know, but sometimes aggresion works better since you can hardly even explain anything to anybody any more.
    Good luck, kid.

  2. Oh that is so sad. From other stories I have read like this i don’t think telling your teachers that wicca isn’t satanic will help. The belief that witches/wiccans are evil is carved in stone in our sociaty. Every time someone says witch most people think of Evil, or devil worshipp but its not. If people only knew what wicca really was. They are afraid of things that are not known to them, and also most people don’t believe in things that can’t be explained easly. Just hang in the best you can. i have found friends who share my interest at school. Oh i am 14. i 4got to mention that. Try to find friends who share interest. If that doesn’t work, i’d take the school to Court. The constitution does give us freedom of Religion, and Wicca is a religion. I really don’t know what other advise i can give you,but if you need to talk, cuz of all the things that are happening in school,you can e-mail me.
    -Ruby-
    p.s.-be careful of the friends you make at school from know on.

  3. When I was in high school (too many years ago to talk about–okay, it was back in the 80’s), I was severely harassed for wearing an army jacket with a peace symbol on it. The guys who were harassing me decided I must be a Communist, and before long the whole school believed that I was a card-carrying member of the Communist Party. I tried to explain what my beliefs actually were, but of course they weren’t interested in that. Then the whole school, including the principal, found out that I was involved with another girl and the shit really hit the fan. I had rocks thrown at me many times at school, and got a lecture from the principal about what a confused young lady I was and how I just acted different to get attention. To make matters worse, the principal told my parents about it too. My point is that kids and people in general are cruel and will find any difference or vulnerability to pick on and tease you about, due to their own insecurities. If you weren’t Wiccan or a vampyre, they would find something else to tease you about. The best thing I can tell you (and this is coming from an older person with some experience and perspective on the subject) is to be yourself, hold your head up high and don’t take any shit. If I could survive high school, you can too. I wish you well.

    I commend you for knowing who and what you are at such a young age–age is relative anyway, but most people your age have no clue who they really are and that’s why they think they have to make others feel small so they can feel bigger in comparison. And there are a lot of teachers who aren’t any more mature than the kids. You don’t have to flaunt your beliefs, you can wear your pentacle under your shirt at school, although I guess it’s a little late for that now. Tell them it’s none of their damn business.

    Peace in chaos,
    Annachie Random

  4. You sound exactly like my friend. Although she wasnt vampire. She didnt cope she just left and did home schooling. Something she’s never regretted. Just an option.

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