I have bared my breast to the lance, and told you my deepest secrets. I want my scars to show, perhaps to save everyone else from the same fate, perhaps just to let people know, that although I may appear innocenct, I am deeply troubled. ( Ha, what do I think I am? A saviour? )
Now, I shall share with you yet another secret of mine. I am beginning to think that I have MPD. Otherwise known as Mutiple Personality Disorder. I think I have 5 main sides of this. Allow me to introduce myself.. All of myself..
The first one is the original one. Jennifer. The shy little goth girl from Texas. The one who is scared to death of alot of things, but not everything mind you and prefers to remain completely silent. This one is rarely showed. Then there is Selphie. My 5 year old half. Very energetic, very outgoing and so full of love. Selphie is the only reason I still keep ahold of my hope these days. Selphie has a tendency to come out to play alot. There is also Ceres. Ceres is probably my darkest and evilest side that I have. Ceres cares nothing about anything, only herself. She has a tendency to come out whenever none of my personalities can handle it anymore. It’s getting more and more frequent. And of course, there is Mina. Mina is terrified to death of everything that moves and doesn’t. She worries constantly about everything, and most of all seeks acceptance, from everyone. And will fall into a deep state of depression if even one person doesn’t like her. She is my suicidal half, she’s always in control when new cuts appear. Mina likes to appear in public places, or around new people. And then there is me Kalli. I am a quiet intelligent girl. Who will sit with you for hours on debating life and it’s aspects. I usually comes out whenever we are around someone who I feels truly understands us, and then I will make an apperance and make whoever I am talking to wonder. I believe in nothing and everything and are quite open-minded. And that is me. All 5 sides of me. Perhaps you think I am crazy, perhaps you don’t, that’s really up to you… As of now, who is in control? Kalli. I am usually the one who publishes on this site, Jennifer seems more interested in writing poetry or working on her fan fiction. But I feel Mina fighting for control, I fear Mina will win. Grrrrr… I look for your responses, love. Until Death Do Us Part, % Princezz SelPhie %
Salutaions,
It’s me again.
I can relate with this one more readily. I don’t think I have MPD as much as I have… an increased mental facitlity.
We talk, we argue, sometimes we change.
most have died. No have been absorbed rather. It’s all very odd and yet fun.
I would like to talk to you more about this subject if you are interested. I do favor the ear of a peer to the woe of a foe.
Go fuck yourself!
Go fuck myself, hm? Sorry to disappoint you, but I don’t have that much energy left rite now. Until Then,
*RaZor*
shut up!
This kind of rudeness should not be allowed on this site. This is a place for people to feel safe and at home. If you anonymous shitheads, whoever you are, need to vent some frustration, do it somewhere else. There are plenty of other and better ways to express yourself.
We all have multiple facets to our personalities. When I was younger I used to give names to the different aspects of myself as you seem to have done. This does not mean you have MPD. That is a serious mental disorder in which the different selves have separated to the point that they are unaware of each other. The fact that you are still in control and have knowledge of you other selves means that you have not reached that point. I once read a really good sci-fi novel by Walter Jon Williams called Aristoi in which the people of the future have learned to use their sub-personalities to aid them in mental tasks through virtual reality. Perhaps we can all take a lesson from this idea and use our multifaceted selves in constructive ways. Or perhaps one day you will be able to re-integrate them back into one unified but varied self. Either way, the important thing is to make the most of what you’ve been dealt. It doesn’t matter who thinks you are crazy. I don’t think you are, but ultimately that doesn’t matter either. You have the power to create your own destiny. I wish you well.
Annachie Gordon