My Cry Out To You(part one)

I remember like it was yesterday… being held in your gentle arms, lying my head on your shoulder, and smelling your sweet cologne. God how I miss your touch on my face… It’s been 6 months since I first fell in love with you, and 3 months since you fell out of it with me. I didn’t mean to chase you away. I miss you so much, I just wanted another chance. Every night I cried for you to take me back…and every night I would bleed because you hated me. I gave up on my life because I lost you. I’m killing myself because I’ve lost you. Without you I’m a nothing, a no one. I’ve been in so many hospitals for overdosing on drugs and cutting myself too deep. My stupidity caused me not to die. So I cried more. I knew I wouldn’t ever get you back, so what was the point of living???? The walls are moving in closer. Everything seems to echo. I keep getting those damned flashbacks to when you actually claimed you loved me. I can’t take this shit anymore. More pain… more drugs… God this is a fucking nightmare. I sit curled up in the corner. My head keeps throbbing… all these people wont quit fucking staring. You walk in the door with her on your arm. I’ve made my decision. I’ll die…you’ll watch.