is this the way you try to envision the way things are?
you know, one day, my friends just kinda of socked me and taunted, ” stand up you Loser.”
i tried to retaliate. I tried to scrunched my face, clenched the knots of fingers, and screamed vehemently. but i lose strength.
You know the many times, i seek to stand tall and breathe air lfor real. all seems so in vain.
fuck it. it just seems so fuckin far to reach.
the more you tried, the harder to fight back.
it just seems so hard.
so tired already.
Sometimes they don’t realise because they don’t know what it’s like to find it’s too far to go. I know I’ve had that experience recently too, and you do wonder why you tried in the first place and why it’s so hard to get past the barrier as it stops and drains you.
But it’s all in passing. Take some time out, get away for a while and lay down and rest. Recover and then try standing up again anew on another day. It’s not always easy, but no one can say you didn’t at least give it a try…
sometimes friends aren’t worth the effort. but you are. next time you step outside take a gun and start firing into the sky. then see if anyone fucks with you.
seriously though, don’t give up.