my life as it is today.

well if everyone saw me for the first time you would think that i am a very quiet person that doesn’t worry about much. looks can be deceiving because inside is so much hate and images of suicide in my head.

well if everyone saw me for the first time you would think that i am a very quiet person that doesn’t worry about much. looks can be deceiving because inside is so much hate and images of suicide in my head. I have a lot of friends so i think they are. Some really want to be there for me and others stab my back the second that i turn it. some days are good like meeting new people on the internet like this one girl her name is kristine i think shes cool but, some other days are fuckin bad its hell. i guess thats life. if i had one wish i would wish for all the pain to go away, no more suffering, no more mental images of suicide but to be happy just like everyone else that i see walking around. My two biggest fears is dying and my greatest is being alone i hope tomorrow is a better day.

By endless pain

i'm always alone and i'm always being hurt.

6 comments

  1. life is !@#$-ed up 🙁 , you just swallow your tears and go forward , and remember : the `happy` people you see walkin` around , half of them aren`t really happy , the other half don`t diserve it… si !@#$ them !

  2. yea i know how you feel my friends are like that, i have a few but only two who would be there for me if i went to them, then put that on top of a shit home life and you have me….but i still act like one of those happy people who are really happy, which is kind of strange i suppse but its how i get by

  3. I undersand completely…I don’t have actual “friends” that would be there for me, but I don’t have any that would COMPLETELY go against me, though. I am truly alone…I hope you don’t hit rock bottom (like me)…

  4. Maybe you should proof read your work before submitting it to a site where people can read it. You think so? Everyone’s life is like that. Yes, it is a part of life. You should have wrote a little more onto it. You call that a story? Seems more like a summory of something to me. Maybe you should try writing more to it, and submitting it again. Maybe then people would like it. Damn, it seems like I say that on EVERY comment. Maybe it’s because no one fucking cares if their piece is good, they just want people to read it. Keep writing and venting if that’s the only way you can. But you need to work on it, a lot.

  5. OK ok…

    If you are old as you say you are (ages dont mean anything) just listen this.

    So many friends of mine have the same toughts and ideas as you, but they are young and misunderstud. You are alone because there is no one to support or understand you.

    I think this site is here for that stuff. And you just give your life some more time to develop it self. Find some goal just to make your life interesting.

    The heck become a programer, we are always alone and it good! Makes the peace seems like the universe!

    And now go young one, battle is awaing, haste to your victory!

  6. we all are scared of dying it isnt the funniest thing on the planet unless you are one of those ppl who enjoy pain …….. but why dont you be happy no one is stoping you hell u r the bastard who what get the fuck out of your way….. so basically kick yourself in the ass and get happy it is much easier than you think!!!!

    just trying to help

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