in my pains i wonder
maybe iam to blame for everything
im blamed for his drinking cause i was
a bad kid
i was blamed for the beatings he gave me
i was blamed for being me
iwas blamed consequently of just defying for being hit
look at me now dad
im nothing
im the little boy in your eyes
who was never given a child hood
something you never had and took from me
why because i tryed
and i cared for my self
make your fucking excuse
if not
why must i grow up living like this
not easy enough
FUCK YOU