“My love, my only love” I whispered in her ear
“My Love, my only love”, she replies wiping away my fears
Together we lay in each other’s arms
Pressing lips together, being seduced by each other’s charms
I look deep into her eyes, knowing I am forever hers
Her voice, the sound of angels, keeps me re-assured
“I know I could never love any other, as long as we have each other”
I say, and she replies, “ We will always have one another”
I kiss her sweet lips once again, shock waves running through me
As her tongue sweeps my mouth I feel love overwhelmingly
We break the kiss, and I say, “My love, my only love”
She whispers back, “My love, my only love”
I head for my love’s house, walking to give her a surprise
Quite a surprise is in store, when I hand her a rose and look into her eyes
I walk a while, her house getting near I smile in delight
I get in range, but something’s strange, darkness covers my light
I look upon her house; she’s standing with someone else held in her arms
Someone else being kissed, someone else being seduced by her charms
I hide behind the trees as he is invited inside I drop to my knees
I feel pain never felt by me, cry tears never cried
I manage to crawl home my heart racing, rose clutched in my hand
I lay down in bed too hurt, too crushed to stand
I whisper to myself, no one else to hear “ My love, my only love”
I echo myself, no one to reply, “My love, my only love”
Only by tears am I caressed, as I am stricken by overpowering fear
So destroyed am I, so ruined am I, I have grown deaf ears
I cry out in anguish, in sorrow, in destruction
My mind turns thought over thought of chaos and corruption
My lost soul never again to be caressed by fingers so seducing
As my one love has left me over chaos to be musing
Mind burning, soul churning over and over pain returning
Plotting as my soul feels to be rotting, death concerning
My plan will be simple; she will feel my wrath, though it will pain me
But she’s caused pain more over, more openly
“You will see,” I say, “My love, my only love”
Echoing softly in my mind, “My Love, my only love”
She comes to me, once again to be held gleefully
I hold her in my arms, holding her close to me
Gently I whisper, “ Close your eyes, my love”
She does as she is told, thinking it a game to behold
Solemnly I grab her hand, stroking it tenderly
Tying it to the bed, with the other carefully
She smiles, wondering of what is to come
I do the same with her feet, gently touching them some
I grab my dagger, running it across her belly, touching her flesh
I tell her to open her eyes; fear grips her as I bring the blade across her chest
“You’ve been disloyal, my love, my only love,
And now you must pay my love, my only love”
Her eyes open wide; I know what fear is inside
I hold her head in my hand, holding it tight, me beside
Taking the blade, I thrust it in her eye, letting the flesh tingle
Blood mixes with white as the flesh in her eye mingles
As I do the same with the other, I cry for her pain
I cry for her blood, I cry for her strain
As she screams in anguish I kiss her head ever so softly
My heart burning with hurt, as I know this is costly
I feel my heart wrench as I torture my love, my only love
I whisper in her ear “ My love, my only love”
I lift her shirt, raising it to a point; she trembles, crying dry tears
And I press the point of the blade to her chest, letting her know her fears
Leaning on it, I jab the blade through her heart, she cries in pain
I grab my chest; lay beside her, feeling horrible anguish driving me insane
I know these are both our lasts breaths, for we die in each other’s arms
Piercing her heart will destroy me, as I am still held by her charms
Breathing is getting heavy, I lay my hand over her wound
I feel her breathing heavy and I know death will be coming soon
I lie next to her, and whisper, “ You are my love, my only love”
I repeat, “ Yes, you are my love, my only love.”
Aching, I wake with a quiet stutter
“Shouldn’t I be dead?” I mutter
What force keeps me bound to this desolate plain?
What retort has kept me with all my pain?
I look to my love I see her cold lips
Colorless holes where there use to be eyes, ones I will miss
What conceivable demon have I become?
What horrible darkness has made me succumb?
Only by evil could I have done such an unconceivable deed
I have no need, nor the greed to have planted such a horrid seed
For I have killed my love, my only love
My one and only love
I run my fingers across her wrist, undoing the cloth around
Unbinding her feet, leaving her body relaxed and sound
I press my lips against hers, feeling cold burn my soul
Running my fingers across her flesh, tracing all I know
Tears sting my eyes, as I know I can only cry
Knowing that she didn’t ever have to die
Overpowering sorrow fills my mind, my cut the most unkind
My souls writhes in torment, tortured by my own mind
Words echo in my ears, reminding me of my deadly fears
The fire of sorrow burns badly, it forever sears
My own voice tormenting me, “My Love, my only love”,
“My one and only love”
I turn to the sky, not sure where to go, what to do
No clue which way is right, which way is true
Too sorrowed to know anything, I get up, walking away
Moaning as every step leaves me astray
Turning the corner, I find something to my surprise
There stands my love, right before my very eyes
Hope springs eternally as she stands there
As she was before, a maiden with ever soft flowing hair
I take a step towards her, she takes one back
I widely wonder at this newly found attack
I ask “Why, my love my only love?”
“You have always been my one and only love”
She says not a word, as I find this obscure reason to return
I run towards her, she stays just out of my reach, while pain begins to burn
What new demon has come to me, tormenting me with all pain above?
Tormenting me with my one true and only love
I leap in anguish, grasping nothing but air
I long for one touch of her softly flowing hair
But to no avail I get none of that for which I feed
Anguish stabs my heart, as I get none of what I need
I cry in frustration, needing her touch, wanting her all the more
I wish to caress her as was once done before
“My love, my only love, why?” I cry in angry desire
“You are my one and only love, my burning fire!”
Once again I get no reply, silence twisting my soul
My own eyes the fiend, seeing her loses my control
My fair and lovely maiden stands before me
Yet she is just out of reach, moving freely
My blood boils with terrible desire
As all I know is consumed by blue fire
Looking at her I place my fingers to my eyes
And push inward, hoping for my sight to die
I feel utter torment as my fingers crush my sight
In a piercing pain, I am surrounded by night
“You can no longer torment me, my love,
For I am now free, my love my only love.’
Directly through my heart is left a twisting blade
Killing me slowly, for there it is stayed
Left by the loss of love once so great
Ended by the pain of burning fate
Jealously and rage surge to my soul
I try to remain friendly in vain; I lose control
Out of sorrow, out of grief I cry out for no one to hear
I cry, but without any tears
All because of this knife left in my heart always twisting
Turning my hurt to pieces, then to mush, death insisting
The pain burns me, the pain of losing my love
My one and only love
I hear a voice through my choice in the shadows so clear
And it speaks, though meek, my very worst fear
It says without emotion of long ended devotion
“I no longer love you, for your true love is done
Darkness is your only friend, for your only love has spoken”
I cry in anger at this new danger found in the unkind voice
What message of demons have they sent when not by my choice?
I know there is another chance; surely this torment will end
I know well, that this can’t be since she was my one true love and friend
My love for her springs to an eternal being, she must feel the same
For if not, one knows not true love, but who is to blame?
Me for in all my sorrow, my grief came no relief
I am losing this but I know I can win when my love is well received
I’ll forever love this one true part of me
The part of me that can never be free
Every time I try, a part of me dies and I hear but not by choice
This terrible unlawful croaking, moaning tempter voice
“I no longer love you, for your true love is done
Darkness is your only friend, for your only love has spoken”
You horrible conceivable demon from the darkest pits of the fiery grave
Stop this torment now you horrible master, I your slave
I will regain control; I can no longer remain fuming
Stop this infernal doing of deeds worth undoing
I already know of what you speak, I do not need repeating
My soul needs no more torment, for it is there and not receding
Remove your knife from my heart you damned voice from evil
Fondle with your own kind be with your equal
I command you now as I your slave leave me at once
I will not stand for this horrible insolence
The voice rings out clear and without emotion
Telling me of my lost devotion
“I no longer love you, for your true love is done
Darkness is your only friend, for your only love has spoken”
The knife in my heart twists again pain in my body burns again
Twisting my heart to nothing slowly causing me all this pain
I cannot save myself all hope is lost in this horrible loss
My dying wish is for her to be happy at my cost
That my suffering and pain are not in vain
I only hope she can be happy out of me falling insane
My only wish is for her happiness, in her death, as I let darkness cover
Now only darkness and I can comfort each other
The knife stops turning, my hate forever burning
My heart will always be left churning
And right on cue it sounds out with great renewal
The voice, emotionless, painless cries to be nothing new
“I no longer love you, for your true love is done
Darkness is your only friend, for your only love has spoken”
I lay down, unable to stop this unending torment
The knife no longer turns, but my soul forever burns, though I’m innocent
What unkind cut has been bestowed to me by fate?
I am left only in a pool of darkness and my own hate
I cannot move, too hurt to raise even my head
I live every minute wishing I would just succumb to death
For some unknown reason, perhaps the season I stay livingMy soul finds no warmth, as the pain is still riveting
Finally, I let darkness take over, and life lets me die
I no longer have tears to cry, I’ve run completely dry
But, though I’m dead the voice rings out in my unseen head
And it repeats, as always what it’s all ready said
“I no longer love you, for your true love is done
Darkness is your only friend, for your only love has spoken”
Once again I wake, my love once again upon the bed
So it seems, I still have eyes inside my head
Why does this dream forever gleam, tormenting me?
I remember the pain, the suffering freely
Yet here I live, suppose to have died twice
So unkind is this life, I need escape from this vice
For I know that my love will torment me to no end
This time, surely all wounds will mend
I take a gun, from my father’s room, I put it to my head
After my last words, I will surely be dead
“I will not let you torment me, my love,
My one and only love.”
Waking, forever aching, I now know why
I realize, no matter how many times, I will never die
I am stuck here, with my fear, and tormenting doom
I should have known before, as darkness looms
I lay down, my love tied to the bed
As thoughts of her will forever run through my head
Seems my love and I were correct in saying forever
For now we will always be together
She, will always torment me, I will always cry
And it will never matter how many times I die
Holding the girl, that I value more than the stars above
I whisper softly ” together forever, my love, my only love.”