You’re that song that I will never get out of my head. No matter how many times you have told me that I would forget you, I know I won’t.
Not long ago I was thinking of giving it all up. I had no real friends, I hated my family and everything just seemed pointless. Life itself had no meaning to me. I didn’t smile much, everyone thought I was a shrew. I thought that of myself, too. I had forgotten how to be kind to people, to give and help others. The idea of “love” was ridiculous to me, I was sure that it was an excuse for people to screw each other. Night and day went by and I wouldnt have cared a bit. The only thing I wanted was to listen to my music (probably the one thing that made me happy at the time) and to be left alone.
I figure why spend time with people who are going to end up hurting me in the end. Break me apart and watch me die. I had turned away from everyone. I had lost all trust in the population of earth. Paranoia settled in. I was lonely, yet I didn’t want to be with anyone. Everyone around were selfish, ignorant, devious assholes. Insensitive liars.
Thoughts of stabbing them and ripping their heads off went through my mind countless times. I could picture the people that I knew lying on the floor with a puddle of dark, thick blood encircling them. Their flesh torn, slit to expose their tendons and bones. I could imagine it.
I was a horrid person that had much hate for the world and its inhabitants.
Then you came along. There was something different about you. I knew I could confide in you and that you would never try to hurt me. You helped me out of every ditch I fell in. There to listen to me when I needed you. You comforted me and attempted to help me fix my problems, even though you couldn’t. You eased them though. Made them easier to swallow and live with. You’re the thought that makes me happy when everything goes wrong.
I guess what I’m trying to say is thank you for being a true friend. My only true friend.
Always you’ll be with me and I can’t forget you. You’re the song that keeps me alive. Raises me up.
And remember this……I love you.