My worst fear, my worts fight…

“Oh dear, how many words and too little meanings to express my feelings…
Last night, my last… two whispers oh release me!!! plz go away, my soul, my heart, my everything!! I thought I had you, I thought wrong… you are my mistake, my nightmare, plz wake me up!!! I can’t lose nor fail, i already did last time, i’m a winner, could you plz just die?

“Oh dear, how many words and too little meanings to express my feelings…
Last night, my last… two whispers oh release me!!! plz go away, my soul, my heart, my everything!! I thought I had you, I thought wrong… you are my mistake, my nightmare, plz wake me up!!! I can’t lose nor fail, i already did last time, i’m a winner, could you plz just die?
Oh you little devil, demon, black angel, surround me in your darkness, don’t let me cry, just let me die…
i’m just asking for three times to whisper, 2 times to smile, one time for dying!!!
come on, can’t you fight your fears? You just destroyed me, what else do you want? do you wnt to come with me? why are you so quiet??? answer me!!!!!! don’t you want to die with me??
Hug me, hold me, support me!!!! i can’t stand it anymore… just let me go, give me freedome, let me live, let me breath…
ja ja ja, you won’t win, no no, you won’t, I’m winnin, i dare you…”

Suddenly in the darkest corner of my room i realized it was my worst fear to stay alone, with no one by my side, no one loving me… i got mad, i started to cry, i raised my head and till today… I’ve tried to fight it.