I kept being my own shadow
I kept being all I hate
All my tears need to cry out loud
And my hollow inundate
I kept being my own sorrow
I kept being my own pain
Everything I used to swallow
Came to cry out loud in vain
I keep crying in the darkness
I keep swallowing my tears
I keep hiding my own sadness
To overcome my own fears
I keep doing everything
I know I shouldn’t do
I keep harming my body
Don’t have strenght to pull through
I keep hiding everything
I keep acting to you
That is something you don’t know
But it’s something that I do
I kept lying to my own self
I kept hiding my own hate
Now that it’s lost inside my heart
All my feelings suffocate
I kept doing what I do now
Each time I felt my own rain
Now that I’m so underrated
I have no right to complain
I keep crying in the darkness
I keep swallowing my tears
I keep hiding my own sadness
To overcome my own fears
I keep doing everything
Everyone shouldn’t do
I keep punishing myself
Each time I can’t pull through
I keep hiding my own face
I keep acting like you
I keep trying to replace
Every feeling that is true
Why do I always try to hide?
Why do I always feel the pain?
Everything’s a repetition
And everything comes back again
Why do I always try to hide
Everything that I feel inside?
Why do I still try to deny
That I have people on my side?
Why do I always feel the pain
That almost anybody feels?
Why do I act like paranoid
Thinking that anybody’s real?
Why do I have all these questions?
Why there are no answers to me?
Is there somewhere better than here?
Is there something better to be?
Questions and questions flowing from me
Answers and answers I just can’t see
Darkness and sadness calling my name
Anger and torment writing the game
I kept everything locked in me
I kept trying to separate
The few light shining around me
And the rest obliterate
I kept my loneliness inside
I kept suffering again
Everytime I needed some help
I cried out loud, all in vain
I keep crying in the darkness
I keep swallowing my tears
I keep hiding my own sadness
To overcome my own fears
I keep doing everything
I know I shouldn’t do
I keep harming my body
Don’t have strenght to pull through
I keep hiding everything
I keep acting to you
That is something you don’t know
But it’s something that I do
I keep doing everything
Everyone shouldn’t do
I keep punishing myself
Each time I can’t pull through
I keep hiding my own face
I keep acting like you
I keep trying to replace
Every feeling that is true
I feel so dead and maybe I am
I swallow the tears of my pain
I feel so dead, I eat what I can
I consume the heat of my veins
I try to taste another flavor
I swallow the tears of my death
Because my soul can see no savior
I swallow the last of my breaths