one nite…stumbling?

you could look into my eyes
your words so easily said
you dressed it up, made it some sorta wonderful
something worth time, really waiting for
yet you jumped so quickly at the chance

someone so willing, you turned into you own lil game
with compelling words, memorable feelings
it was supposed to be special
…it was for me…

one nite of something turned into a long time of thinking
never forgetting, i always remember
you always apologize, but for wrong reasons
im sorry is a constant part of you?
your sorry for my feelings, your sorry for me
im only sorry for caring, making your happiness important

is it ok to love you?
is it ok to hate you?
feel nothing for you anymore, never try to?
i try to walk away from you..
im only walking in circles
the one person i envy, the one person i miss
is the same person im trying to get away from
…. but still stumbling over!….
-(march 9th, 2003)-