Its been a year
One year ago
The day my purity was taken
By you
One little mistake
Lead to one big tragedy
I shoulda told the whole truth
But I didn’t
I can’t go back and say what really happened
Or else I will be considered a liar
They won’t believe me
It makes me so depressed
To think about that night
It makes me pissed
That he’s still free
He has no worries
While I can’t walk down the street
I can’t go somewhere without worrying
That something might happen again
Or that I might see him
He might do it again to someone else
Ten times worse than it was to me
I can’t sleep in the dark
Because I’m afraid he or someone else is there
Just waiting for me to fall asleep again
Planning their next move
I was going to the fair
I had a feeling he’d be there
But I was hoping I was wrong
So I went anyway
What another mistake that was
Riding in the car
Listening to music and laughing with a friend
Then I seen him
Walking on the street
I jumped in the car
Flew to the floor hoping he wouldn’t see me
I started crying
I could barely breathe
You dont know what you did to me!!
You stupid son of a bitch
I hope you die!
You’re walking around free as a bird
While I’m frightened and scared
I just wish it would all go away
I want you to die!
I can’t say it enough
I hate you, hope you die
Go to hell
Because thats where people like you belong
Bad people, evil people
I have been sexually harassed
And nothing bad happened to him
Nothing
Even if the judge sent him to jail
It couldn’t be as bad as the pain he put me through
I couldnt help but count the months that went by
Every day on the 20th I would sit and cry
One year ago
You destroyed my life
It was bad enough having you kiss me
Having you put your hands down my pants
To parts that were mine
That had never been touched before
All of that was terrible
But the worst thing of it all
Is to know that you got away with it
Authors Note: I know this isn’t a poem, or even a story. I made the mistake of going to a 420 party in 2002… its been almost a year and with the next 420 coming up… the one year aniversery… it saddens me more and more each day. I just had to let it all out. The words are true, I just couldnt put it poetically, or even make it good to read.