Pain

Why do I feel this pain and suffering all the time,
It never gets out of my mind.
I start to get dizzy and I want to fall out,
Everyone just seems to scream and pout.

Why is it that I’m not where I want to be yet,
My life is just one big bet.
I want so many things and I know I can’t have them,
The thoughts again.
My head starts spinning,
No one notices,
They only see one side,
When I’m really hiding in a bind.
The torture of not knowing what I’ll do next,
Letting it all out in text.
I’m tired of feeling the way I do….
My mind stops
To a pause in which I can’t escape,
I return to good.