Poem-Solitary

Alone, in this room
I’ve got time to myself again
Im thinking, I have no faith or trust in anything
I can’t trust anyone, in truth there’s just nothing

I’ll just ponder these terrible thoughts and feelings a while
With the reality of who I’ve become Im no longer in denial
Everything in this life has become defiled
I no longer even care if I fall in love again
I don’t think I can again
There’s no different person for me to turn into
I’ll never be able to start out new
I keep evolving further and further away from all of you

Alone is what I will always be
Alone is what is meant for me

The truth has cemented me down and so it I can never leave
There’s no hope in me anymore in finding the right one for me
I used to think I could find her but now I no longer believe
That’s just how it is now, and that’s how it will always be
Deep inside I’ve always known that alone is what is meant for me
I’ll just ponder these terrible thoughts and feelings a while
With the reality of who I’ve become Im no longer in denial
Everything in this life has become defiled
I no longer even care if I fall in love again
I don’t think I can again
There’s no different person for me to turn into
I’ll never be able to start out new
I keep evolving further and further away from all of you

Material people, material relationships
Based on nothing real
Wandering eyes, behind the back cheating leads to lies
Fading, fake loves, none of it is real
They start out in lust, but they always decline
Always the same thing
So much faking, denying, lying
So many relationships based on lust that I see
They are holding hands, they are trading smiles
But their just in it for the fuck, their both lied to by their denials
They mate to create more living
Part of the infecting, mate to create more living
Parasites spreading, mate, then divorcing
Brainwashed by the lie of marriage
The lie of marriage to justify two people mating
Mating to create more living
Parasites spreading
Their in it for the fuck, lied to by their own denials
Living in the lie of marriage
Living in the miserable lie of marriage
Brainwashed by the lie of marriage
The lie of marriage to justify two people mating
They mate to create more living
Parasites spreading

I felt love, that I don’t deny
But love does not fit into our society’s lies
True love is a feeling for someone that never goes away
It stays with you till your final, dieing day
So many say they love someone
Yet so few really do
Love doesn’t need the lies of a bible or a church
Love doesn’t need a lie like marriage, love doesn’t have any rules
Love is a rare feeling to feel in life, unlike sadness and anger
So many false loves, so few real ones
I feel a cement wall around my love
I feel I will never find someone I can trust, that I can truly love again
There’s no hope in me anymore in finding the right one for me
I used to think I could find her but now I no longer believe
The truth has cemented me down and so it I can never leave
The feeling of love is pure, and is so special to me
But now its battered, ripped, torn at the seams
But now its dirty, defeated, and ruined in me
I felt love, that I don’t deny
I didn’t kill that feeling
It let itself die
I felt love, that I don’t deny
I didn’t kill the love
It got worn down by time, it let itself die
There’s a little love not dead
But its consumed with dread
There’s a little love not dead
But its consumed with dread

The truth has cemented me down and so it I can never leave
There’s no hope in me anymore in finding the right one for me
I used to think I could find her but now I no longer believe
That’s just how it is now, and that’s how it will always be
I felt love, that I don’t deny
I didn’t kill that feeling
The feeling let itself die

Alone is what I will always be
Alone is what is meant for me
Alone is what I will always be
Alone is what is meant for me

Adam Keith

By Adam Keith

My name is Adam.