I know a few of these poems I have already posted but I decided to put my whole collection of poems together since I refuse to watch TV anymore and refusing to read the papers with the war going on in Iraq so why not share my writting and keep my mind off of things so please enjoy and hope this is over soon….
-Falln Angel
“Scarred and Cut”
Red Dropplets of pain and sarrow
Imperfections shine brighter than my strenghts
Imperfections make life rougher
Imperfections make life tougher
More pain
More sarrow
Darkness surrounds me engulfing my life
Trying to take control
Maybe I should just give up?
Scarred and cut
Torn from my life
“Untouched”
Holy and pure
Untouched yet ruined
Crimson droplets form a river
Flowing off my wrist
No one understands my life
The darkness the pain the unknow light
The red glow from the scars
The red glow coming from the crimson river flowing
it takes control
Life is now out of my control
“Get You To Understand”
Don’t you see
Don’t you understand
Why do you think I want to Know aobut her
Can’t you tell that i want you?
Can’t you comprehene how feel
Do I have to spell it out for you
I know about hte others and your sides ones too
I know your rep and it doesn’t matter
All that matters is you
All I care about is you
So, what is wrong with me?
What keeps you from seeing what is right infront of you
Do I need to spell it oulf
Because I can carve it into my wrist
And write it with my blood
If that is what you wish
How do I get you to understand
I know I’m not perfect but
So what neither are you!
What do I need to change
Just tell me and I will try
Why can’t you just look and see who I truely am
Am I that ugly and imperfect
That You just ignore this angel indisgue
Maybe I will just spell it out wtht eh blood from my wrist
And then just maybe you will understand
After I am gone it will all make fucken sense to you
But, until then stay fucken clueless
I couldn’t careless
For these carving will tell the story of my life
“When the World Stopped Caring”
When the world stopped caring
I was the one there to wipe away your tears
When the world stopped caring
I was there to see what i could do to help
When the world stopped caring
I was there to try and bring your sunshine back
When the world stopped caring
I tried to rush to your rescue
When the world stopped caring
I wouldn’t Leave your side even when the others did
When teh world stopped caring
I was the one that still did care
So, when the world stops caring for me
Will you be the one that still does care?
When teh world stops caring
Where will you be?
Will you be there by my side
Or, be liek the other and stop caring too?
“Blade”
Blade calls again
I wish I had the power to just say no
But, Blade has the power over me
He brings the darkness and takes it away
I hate this tainted body of mine
So weak and its mine
But, Blade loves me still
His cold touch on my warm pale flesh
He is my lover, my friend
My secret affair to rid my pain
Blade holds the truth
He doesn’t judge my tainted body
Blade, so shiny, cool
Blade, he is my end.
“Blade II”
Darkness surrounds me the blade calls again
The truth to be seen, the power it holds
I whish I had the power
Instead of being stuck in this tainted wrecked ugly body of mine
Beginning to be engulfed by the darkness
The cool sting on my warm flesh
The crimson river flows on my arm and the cool metal
The blade my lover my friend
It holds the truth
The understanding for the truth
It doesn’t judge my tainted body.
“Forget Him”
Forget his name
Forget his kiss
Forget his face
And, don’t forget to forget the way he used to taste.
Forget his strong embrace
Forget the loe you two used to make
Remember now he now has someone new
Remember now you two are through
Forget him even when they play your song
Forget him even though you cried all night long
Forget his smile remember now his smiles are all hers
Forget the closeness that you two had
Remember now he’s with her
Remember now your nothing new
Forget that you memorized his walk
Forget the way he always talked
Forget teh things he said, like all the dreams you two made
Remember now he’s moved on
Remember now he’s so far gone
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember now he’s holding her tongiht
Forget he said he’s never let you go
Forget he said he’d never leave you alone.
Remember now he isn’t yours
Remember now he is all hers
Forget the times he walked by and touched your hand
Forget how he got you always to blush
Forget teh times you two fought over nothing just to make up
Remember now he is making up with her.
Forget the times he said your name so soft and tenderly
Remember now its not the same
Forget the times he held your hand
Remember no its her hand he’s holding
Forget teh sweet things he used to say
If you can forget these things
And not pretend
Then, remember now he is just a friend.
“Didn’t Want to See What They Saw”
I told you I loved you
I told you I cared
When you told me that you loved me too
My world was complete
But, the next thing I knew
You were macking on my best friend
I kne I should of listen to them
When they said you were untrue
But, no one choses who there heart loves
Or, did I not want to see what they saw?
You said you loved me too
So, then why were you so untrue?
Because you say I’m so pretty when I cry
And that your pretty when you lie
I should have known better
I shouldn’t of let you in
Knowing your rep and hoping i could make you see the light
But, now i know you can’t change someone
How did I let this happen to me
Why did I fall for your game?
I just didn’t want to see what they all saw