There is poison
Living within what some might call my very spirit
Something which once controlled me.
Now, I say that I speak my own words, fight my own battles
The darkness is no longer my master
I was wrong
The poison remains
Spawning from the ashes of the souls I have burnt within my heart
It threatens to swallow me whole
Making me almost afraid
But because of the world’s stupidity
I am forced to to hide it
So the poison goes after my center
The battles inside leaves me weak with pain, and loss
There is so much I want to live for now, but it is too late, isn’t it?
So many things stand to be lost if my darkness wins
Yet, poison is seeping into my thoughts
The poison that has always been there
In forsaking the darkness, I lost my immunity to it
So I’m infected from the inside out
But in this world, who really cares?
My entire mind seems to scream for help
But the cry will never pass my lips
I ignore the pain, ignore the emotions
Ignore as darkness stirs within my soul
Almost a reminder of days long past, who I once was
My past nature, which I have not abandoned
Only hidden, allowed to fester inside
Like poison