Last weekend…
Last weekend I noticed…something.
Something…that changed me. It changed me in a way difficult to describe.
I noticed that the world sucks. I realize that’s not profound or anything. Everyone knows that. But when you really think about it, it comes out to be true. So you try to find a way to make it better. Therapy, religion, family, friends, lying to yourself incessantly. But all these things just leave you feeling completely empty inside. Lonely, with no where to go, like your not even worth it. And then… And then it finally occurs to you…Another way out…one that you would have, until recently, considered atrocious. Suicide. But even after you contemplate it, or possibly even cut yourself a few times, you realize it really isn’t anyway to go. Because when it comes right down to it…As shitty as this hellhole of a forsaken worthless piece of fucking trash this earth is…
…There really isn’t anywhere else to go…