No matter how hard I try
I just can’t justify
What I’m doing, why I’m here
Why I try dealing with this fear
Day in and day out
The same old shit makes me shout
At the top of my lungs I scream into the night
It doesn’t help, just helps me put up with this fight
I’ve lost all reason, all feeling and care
I only wake up cause I dare to dare
I do not sleep yet I go to bed every night,
Tossing and turning, so I write by candlelight
I live each day in fear of the next
I keep feeling this life is a test
If it is I have failed, I have been expelled
Everyone has a story, and this story they tell
I find it hard to live; I find it hard to deal
When the world around me is a big spinning wheel
In this rat race we call life, we are ruled by fate
Who is it that controls us? Who opens the gate?
I live each day on the edge, my sanity breaking
While everything surrounds me is constantly faking
I dream about life, and I live in a dream
I wake up only to hear myself scream
The bane of my life, are those memories of pain
Every time I remember I get whipped with a cane
They hinder my future, they hinder my choices
They are what gave rise to these voices
As I lay here at night, in the dark, I am tired
But they do not sleep it’s as though they are fired
They obstruct my sleep, they obstruct my day
I feel slowly, my mind, my sanity fray