Scabs on my arms to hide the pain.
I scratch away at my fate.
I looked at your brown eyes,
And saw love.
That emotion that somehow eludes me.
I won’t be dragged into this.
I can’t fall in love.
I’m not supposed to;
I have to be alone.
I can’t grow attached to you.
Your eyes fell to the floor.
I guess I broke your heart.
I moved my eyes to my arms.
You talk; ask me why I won’t look.
I gaze at the scabs.
Why won’t you be with me?
I love you, can’t you see?
Goddamnit! Look at me!
You stand up from the table
And look down at my arms.
I still gaze at the scabs
As you walk out the door.
I drive people away.
I can’t have a friend.
I don’t how.
Don’t know why I can’t tell you.
I didn’t mean to hurt you.
I don’t do it on purpose.
I gouge at my arms.
I can’t feel the pain.
I scratch at he scabs on my arms
Until one bleeds.
Another painful heart,
Just left to bleed.