Screaming

Stop telling me how I should suppress it all and not explode under the pressure they apply.
My mind isn’t like that.
I feel just like they all do.
I may not be human, but hey, whoever said demons couldn’t feel?
I protect those that I love and I shall not stop.
I must keep them safe else I might lose them. I can’t be alone. Not again. Too long, I had the burden of solitude to bear- I cannot go back. Not ever. “I will never strand you.” Never say never, sister. I know you love me, but nothing is absolute. All things are changeable. Please let that promise be kept sacred. I know you love him, Rayven, but do not let him control your life. I love you, too. Please don’t leave me to be alone again. You are the strength I still need. Don’t you see? I am not yet strong enough to stand on my own. I know I sound like a weak human, but you are still needed. I know I said I no longer fear that, but in truth you know I always will. I cannot afford to lose someone so close to me again. So no razors tonight. Just tonight-please? I just can’t stand how you do that. I see what you do and I want to cry each time. Please don’t make me cry. I feel such a child to shed tears. Please keep me from crying. Don’t let me fall. I trust you with my life. Don’t break trust. Goodnight.