Shadows
I am lost upon the shadows
Somewhere from not caring and caring to much
I blame this on my child hood
I blame my parents
I blame myself
But I think most of all I blame you
For you bend my reality from no love and so much that it makes me sick
I can feel your pain
Or maybe it’s my own
I can hardly tell
I am lost for reasons beyond reasoning
And all my answer sound like questions
I doubt everything yet I go on so assured
The question is what am I assured of?
All my life has been is fuck up
But perhaps this is why I can’t be close to you
Because I am so use to everything being wrong that I am afraid of good
So I say my good byes to you and this false sense of happiness because I know that life is pain