Normally, people speak of how they love someone and that person that they love, doesn’t love them in return. What if the situation is reversed? What if there was someone that truly loved you but you couldn’t return the affection?
I’m finally with a guy that I love more than the rest of the world. He loves me in return and to tell you the truth, the world has never been a better place. But, my ex-boyfriend, who is still in love with me, wants me back. Severely. I do care about this guy. He’s one of my best friends. But, I’m in love with Tristen. We were in a long distance relationship for a long time. We had gone to skool together so it’s not like we hadn’t known each other. But, we tried the long distance thing and we made it work to the best that we could. Why am I telling you this? Well, I’ve waited a long time to be with him. And he’s back. And I’m happier than I’ve ever been. But, when I talk to Jester, I feel aweful becuz I know that he’s miserable. I guess what I’m saying is, Love shouldn’t be you wanting to help someone. I have this urge to go to Jester and make him happy. But all that is, is my constant need to help people. No one should ever be with someone cuz they feel that it’s the “right thing to do”. I know that it seems selfish and wrong, but I’m happy. And I think for the first time in my life, I’m putting myself first. I dont know what the point of this post is. Maybe I just wanted to tell someone. I think that I’m always trying to let people know that they have a choice and that things can be better. I dont know why I’m being optimistic. But, maybe I can help people. I dont want to know the reason behind everything. It doesn’t always matter. All i know is, I’m happy for once. And I’m in love. And I wont give that up for anything. Not when I’ve waited this long.