Staring at the knife

as i stare at the knife adn make another cut my wound duz not bleed
my eyes dont tear
my body feels no pain
the only pain that i feel is the paint that my heart feels as the cold knife stabing another wound
my internal bleeding kills unnoticably
i am the only one that knos the pain
the pain that hurts so deeply
the pain that i dont want
the pain that kills me
the pain that makes me numb
i want to be left alone in my numbness