Still Want to Cut

Well about a year ago my friend started cutting himself and so did I following him. but then about a month later a friend of his told a consuler at our school and he got sent to a mental institute. Then suddenly after that we stopped. But now for some reason I want to cut myself again. I dont know why I just do just to feel the adedilyne rush through my fucking body as I bleed. It feels so good but I don’t want my friend to find out and critzise me. And even more I don’t want my girl friend to find out don’t know what she would do. but i still want to do it so I probaly will even if I end up like friend did, or if my girl friend and my friend leave me.