Suicidel Love Life

IM going insane.
The walls are closing in.
I cry myself to sleep every night and think of the one I love.
He has died because of me.
I wish I could have saved him but there was nothing I could do and so I will sit here forever thinking of him….
I hold up the gun though.
Thinking if I should end this shit or live through it.
Though he is gone, and ive silt my wrists I can do nothing, but sit here and think.
I finally hold the gun to my head.
I say softly “Ill see you soon, my love…”
I pull the trigger and everything goes dark
I see red and nothing more.
The picture I was holding of you fell down onto my lips.
It became stained with red the color of a rose… of love…
The candle lights dimmed and soon the room went completely black.