fears

The problem

to the worst mom and daddy, when you read this i’ll be dead,, resting on my final bed. i dont have the words and i cant explain, all my life i’ve felt this pain. my existance twisted and full of tears, you’d see my reasons, if you had fears. i’ve lost control,but this i know,… Continue reading The problem

my life as it is today.

well if everyone saw me for the first time you would think that i am a very quiet person that doesn’t worry about much. looks can be deceiving because inside is so much hate and images of suicide in my head.

Death&Pain

I for one don’t believe in life afterwards…that’s for sure, but i do believe there is something out there, smater than us (i’d prefer not to use “greater”)….u know, like aliens, but nothing supernatural. I believe all problems have a scientifical explanation, even if man hasn’t found it yet…perhaps we will never be able to… Continue reading Death&Pain

Hanging Pain

It crosses my mind everyday The pain inside is locked away What if that lock should crack and break? The pain inside would fill the place It would overcome all my fears

Dementia’s Dream

Sugar coated hatred. Lives, flickering in a graveyard. Tiny strands of hope, broken at the slightest touch, lost forever.

sadden poems of a bitter loves end,..

through the darkness i shall run running from my fears i hear your voice begging me to come home but my darlin i never will i will run until the darkness fades away and in my world of dreaming visions the dark will always stay here is where i will lay dreaming of you sweet… Continue reading sadden poems of a bitter loves end,..

i sit in the past

I sit here in the past- remembering how things were so unclear-the way you looked when you closed your eyes-trying to fight back the tears-I never wanted to leave you-and now you seem so far away-I feel so fucking broken- I’ve lost the meaning to everything I’ve wanted to say- so don’t take this pain… Continue reading i sit in the past

mch4uluvnikki

i’m lying here again,lost in thoughts of you,your picture in one hand,knife in another,tears stains on my face, blood all over the place, my cd player on repeat, every song a stinging reminder of you, i loved you when i first saw you, you took my pain & fears away, and made me see light… Continue reading mch4uluvnikki

As darkness falls over my face my worst nightmare is realeased. Death and sadness surround me, choking me. Images of rejection and judgemental people. I dont want to be here. My fears have formed a black smog around me, it looks like a beautiful aura to the unseeing eye. Its swallowing me whole and i… Continue reading fears

Watching

He breathes down my neck constantly. I can always feel his coldness wherever I go. You can probably feel him too. Everytime I sleep and everytime I wake up I can sense him watching over me, waiting, biding his time. He is the curse that is put upon us from the moment we are born.… Continue reading Watching