I am a cutter,and i always try to push the blade down a little harder just to try and die but something in me stops it.I have tried to commit suicide 20 times and almost die on 2. i never wanted this life i never wanted to be born cant i just die and yet… Continue reading thoughts of suicide
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My worst fear, my worts fight…
“Oh dear, how many words and too little meanings to express my feelings… Last night, my last… two whispers oh release me!!! plz go away, my soul, my heart, my everything!! I thought I had you, I thought wrong… you are my mistake, my nightmare, plz wake me up!!! I can’t lose nor fail, i… Continue reading My worst fear, my worts fight…
one last time
standing in the middle of the room looking around wondering what would happen if i wasnt here anymore..wondering if i just fell dead right here..if anyone would care..walk down stairs..take one last look at my parents..take a walk..getitng one last look at everything around..walking back home up to my room..taking one last look at what… Continue reading one last time
slashes of blood
watch my blood, fall to the floor. as it has, many times before. although, this time is different you see. it’s pain caused from you, this time it is not me. you’re the one who’s making these marks, its just my hand, my razor, leaving them. these slashs are your words, which has torn my… Continue reading slashes of blood
ghosts
after a long day of school. a girl goes home to wat will be the last day of her life and the being of her ghost life. a life of a ghost is seeing ur best freinds live and maybe even marring ur lover taking ur life away waking up to see ur dead but… Continue reading ghosts
Broken (poem/song lyrics)
I reached out in the darkness that surrounds me, But you pulled away your hand, And so I fell deeper into the emptiness of what used to be my heart. I’ve been broken, Shattered on the rocky remains of my former love, I’m dying, Left to bleed dry, I’ve been broken. You turned your back… Continue reading Broken (poem/song lyrics)
Hate
‘Hate’ Right now I hate you. I cannot believe you did this to me. What did I do to deserve this? I don’t want your fucking pity! The last time you did this, I let it go unseen.. But as of now I’m done with you. I don’t know if you record will ever be… Continue reading Hate
In Loving Memory
We lay together in the street covered in your own blood. You so beautiful as what light there was shone down into your tear filled eyes knowing what was about to come. I made you swear not to speak. That mouthed “I love you forever etched in my memory. I pryed that I would be… Continue reading In Loving Memory
The Beginning of the End
My hand starts to tremble I start to feel weak Tears fall from my face like lil rain drops. I fall to the ground A pill bottle rolls away from my hand Memories of my once happy life flash by me My holding me, gram rocking me to sleep, daddy…I draw a blank there Then… Continue reading The Beginning of the End
he was all she ever wanted
She cant be found When her heart is broken She cant be seen Any more For she has lost her last chance And it has been taken The last time this happened She disappeared for a while No one cared Then he came into the picture And she Was safe What happened She is confused… Continue reading he was all she ever wanted