Looking at myself and what I’ve become I realize that my life of pain is just begun Homicide, suicide Looking for something I cannot find
Tag: suffering
Love Is Not Real
I love you so much. Being with you is like nothing I’ve ever experienced before. I never knew that love could be so controlling, so manipulative, and so hurting. I didn’t know that love came in a tiny black package with a sticker saying “DO NOT OPEN”.
my life as it is today.
well if everyone saw me for the first time you would think that i am a very quiet person that doesn’t worry about much. looks can be deceiving because inside is so much hate and images of suicide in my head.
*~HER~*
I’ve promised the one I love that I won’t I’ve promised my friends I won’t I’ve promised myself I won’t Well, I broke my promise I couldn’t help it She just got worse Oh how I loathe her Her life is my pain Her death would be my sweet release Oh the joy that would… Continue reading *~HER~*
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This suffering I can no longer endure I can’t see myself without you From the moment we met I knew IT just took me to long to realize it You’re everything I can’t find within myself People say i’m crazy, but I want to be with you This is new to me I can’t remember… Continue reading untitled
alone in the light
i can not seperate my self from the suffering nomore can i walk with people and not feel the pain in my head and in my heart what am i to do… so alone so alone blood on my face a hole in my heart all i see is red rage and hate cloud my… Continue reading alone in the light
Inside
My world, It’s own painful reality. My soul, Stricken with sorrow. My hope, Dissipating into regret. My heart, Shallow and worthless. My eyes, Tear stained and blind. My reality, So cold it burns, Sickening and regretful. I’m trapped in this morbid place, This hole inside, Flooding with crimson water. The water that once saved me,… Continue reading Inside
waste
stop wasting pain i like the pain i like the agony come to death as one try to escape as them the pain feels good blood flowing laying there soaking drenched continue the beatings continue the tears rip away that smile gentle pain gentle suffering gentle death stop wasting it all
Depression
As I stare out into nothing I see nothing but black emptiness. Theres no point of living no point to feel this sadness anymore. Why should we have to live through life when all we want to do is die. Why should we live in depression when all you get is ten seconds of happiness… Continue reading Depression
Depression
Have you ever had one of those day when you just wanted to die. Not so much as going off and killing yourself but you just wish someone would come and kill you. Well those days come everyday for me and atleast once a week seriously think about killing myself. I don’t cut myself because… Continue reading Depression