ive been suicidel before, ive been happy before, ive been numb, my whole life i have had m,v,p a heart problem i never realy thought it much a bother to me i could sill live a happy long life untill 3 months ago i had a drug od and i found out it advaned to… Continue reading now im numb
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Glowy
Tonight I feel pretty good. There was a long time there, where some people were stalking me. Now it seems everything has dyed down and feeling a little safer. What to do to say, “Thank you” is pressing on my mind now? It only seems appropriate. Too bad, can’t really afford to do anything right… Continue reading Glowy
feelingless-poetry
i cant feel the knife cut deeper each time it cuts i cant feel the blood spill from my veins i dont want to liv this way any more all the shit that u say to me cuts deeper than any knife will ever cut sumtimes i wish that i would go deaf so that… Continue reading feelingless-poetry
Just a bunch of thoughts (poetry)
The pain the envelopes my soul just keeps coming and coming Destroying me Raping me and yet loving me Why does pain blood demons and anguish love me so much why what did I do that was so wrong to deserve this My whole life I have been ridiculed laughed at hated made fun of… Continue reading Just a bunch of thoughts (poetry)
The First Day Of Highschool!!! HELP!!!
I’m a goth and have gone to a private school my whole life. Well In about a month I will walk through the doors of an unknown world to me, Highschool. I dont know anyone that goes there. I dont even know other goths. In my old school I was the only “freak” or whatever… Continue reading The First Day Of Highschool!!! HELP!!!
My First Death
They say whenever a person dies they’re whole life flashes before your eyes. My first love, John, died and I don’t know what he saw but I saw not only him sweat his sweet blood but everything…. From the first time I layed eyes upon him untill the second his limp body ly in my… Continue reading My First Death
Realizing (true)
As I lay there in bed staring up at the ceiling I realize something. I realize what my life is and how Im running it. My family life is nothing, no one cares for me, eventhough I care for them, I just never show it by rebelling and yelling. I realize Im living a dream.… Continue reading Realizing (true)
The sand (Are you happy?)
The sand sticks to my white skin. In my nostrils. On my lips, in my lips, in my inactive mouth. In my useless mouth. Sand. Waves come and go before my eyes, black and white under the warm moon, smelly like seaweed, sensual jellyfish, dead fish, like a song i wish i could sing. Waves… Continue reading The sand (Are you happy?)
Save me
Why is it that the pain that I feel is visable to you?My whole life I have been suffering, but every-one surrounding me is blind.How can you see it?I was sure you would taunt me, just like these demons do as they plauge my mind, I thought you’d hurt me for being weak.He dose!He beats… Continue reading Save me
a day in the life of lizz i
I get home and dad’s already gone out, to the pub probably, or to the off-licence. It’s not unusual, he’s normally pretty drunk by lunchtime anyway. Doesn’t bother me, if he wants to do it then that’s fine. I mean I’m not really any different with taking drugs. My father is the one person I… Continue reading a day in the life of lizz i