the one that got away…

theres the perfect girl for everyone. or so they say. i met my perfect girl last year at school. she was and still is beautiful, well i remember her as being beautiful.

we dated for 8 months and had the most wonderful times. i thought about having kids with this girl and growing old with her. building a future was my goal. but unfortuanutly our families came from different places and my mother didnt allow me to see her anymore or i would be kicked out of my house. i made my decision to let her go and stay in my home. but i lost the girl of my dreams. since then, ive gotten my own place in the hopes of getting her back but she wont listen to me when i apoligize to her. she feels that my discision to break up with her to keep my house was wrong and i should’ve went homeless for her. i tell her i love her and i know it affects her. but i dont know whats holding her back from telling me how she truly feels. shes told me to go away but i just cant stop thinking about her. i havent called her since she told me not to. but she still runs through my mind more than ever. i know i fucked up horribly with her but i need help dealing with this. any advice will help. i need this girl back in my life. and if the girl i am talking about happens to read this, you should know who you are. i miss cocoa-fluff-a-nutter-butter…

By malichi

everybody deserves a second chance to pay for their past sins..

11 comments

  1. In my opinion, this girl is being unbelievably stubborn and childish.

    She wanted you to go homeless for her… is she missing something in her head? Had you have left your house, you wouldn’t be able to get a job, which means you couldn’t afford an apartment or any living quarters, and you and her would just be another set of hobos on the street.

    If you truly do love her then you wouldn’t give up and I hope you don’t. She just needs to realize that your decision was for the best. And if she loves you, then she will get over this little predicament.

    Talk to her. Get her to voice her feelings about you whether good or bad. Once you do, you’ll know whats going on in her head and if you would still want her in your life.

    I hope things between you and cocoa-fluff-a-nutter-butter work out.

    I couldn’t finish typing that name out without laughing. It’s cute.
    Wish you the best.

  2. yeah it is a cute name but its not my name for her, its her guinea pigs name. i love her guinea pig. its really cute. but shes pissed about me choosing my house over her ecause i told her i would die for her and me loseing my house is nothing close to dieing for her. in one area thats true, in another its the same thing. homelessness is like a slow painful death that i dont want to go through. i really hope she stummbles upon this post so me and her can sit down and talk without interupttion.

  3. I agree with Intoxication. She’s being really stubborn. What kind of person asks you to give up your house? If she really loved you, she would want you to stay safe in your own house, and she would wait until you and her can make things work for yourselves together. Even if you did say you would die for her, why “die” for her if its not even neccesary? You could just wait and you wouldnt have to give up your house. I think when you said it you meant that you would sacrifice yourself to save her…not give up your house when you could just wait a few years until your parents can’t do anything about it and then continue seeing her. That’s just my opinion. I hope you two work things out!

  4. After all this you still want this girl? It must be true love. Well someday I plan to sell my house,car,everything and just wander the planet with my girl. Leave all traces of the modern world behind. I want to do something that will have me remembered forever. Whether my accomplishment be evil and cruel or merciful and generous. But most of all I just want to live life with my love.

  5. I think if you really love her show her what you wrote. Even if she is being stubborn. I know what it’s like to have your mom tell you that your not allowed to be with the person you love and fell complet with. Talk to her and if she doesn’t listen forget sbout her. It’s mostlikly her loss anyway.

  6. You can’t forget about the person you love.

    No matter how hard you try… it can never happen. You’re heart won’t allow it. Trust me on this.

    Don’t give up.

  7. ive already trie to talk to her, and shes so pissed at me for leving her. what she’ll do is she’ll here me out and we’l talk, but she wont cange her opinion of what happened. whats worse is that the weekend everything went down, i had previously broke up with her because of a horrible arguement in which she made fun of my father leaving me at birth. we got back together and i snuck over to her house and we had sex. but i was brounded and wasnt soposed to be going anywhere. so my mother said i couldnt see her anymore. thats when she made the assumtion that i went back out with her to screw her and run. she wont get past that and see that the sitiuation was out of my control. should i have given up my home for her? should i have gone against my mothers will and seen her in the first place? im confused… i want to be with her again so bad but she wont open her mind and listen to me. and the last time i tried to call her mother got on the phone and told me that everytime i call i get her upset and she didnt want me calling anymore.but i feel as though she is the one. that i should try harder to get her back. that i shouuldnt lose her. it would be my biggist mistake to move on. please help me!

  8. Jezus Krist. Damn, that is one incredibly stubborn woman( I thought I was bad.)

    I don’t think I can help you much more, the only way this is going to work out is if she finally understands your situation and trys to work it out.

    Man, if I wanted someone this bad and this is the crap they put me through.. they must really be worth it.

    I really hope everything works out for you.
    Best wishes.

  9. SHES YOURS FOREVA MAYBE NOT PHYSICALLY BUT MENTALLY.
    lOVE HURTS YOUVE GOTTA GET USED TO IT
    *winces with pain*
    I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL DEAR

  10. I’m *that* girl. I read it, it moved me. I wanna get back with you. I’m just scared. All the last relationships, escpecially with guys have all gone south, I cut over the last guy, and I’m trying to stop hurting myself… but yeah, I still have feeling for you. I miss you too.

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