Why do I feel this way?
The pain burns deep inside my soul.
I feel internally scarred for life.
My soul cries out…
In return no response.
Why can’t I have the body I want?
I feel starving.
What life do I have?
One where I crave to be touched,
Hugged , embraced.
One where I feel worthless.
I want to escape, but I can’t…
Well this never end?
This feeling of hatred.
And loss of belonging.
Why does everybody treat me like I have the
Plague
I don’t get it, they don’t even
Know me and already they hate me.
I feel so trapped, exhausted,
Frustrated and unloved on a
Certain level.
How come I find comfort in food and movies?
Well this madness everyone calls “life”
Stop? Or is it just my “life” that seems
Maddening?
I’m so confused, scared, and hurt.
If you had 3 words to describe me in
What would they be?
I know what you would say,
Fat, ugly, and disgusting.
Some say I’m not that bad to
Look at.
I’m so lonely.
How can I make that problem disappear?
I wanna run away to the sea.
Just me alone no worries, fears or pressures.
My heart aches for a true friend.
One I could cry, laugh, and
Share with.
I know I’m not ugly, but
Beauty is in the eye of the
Beholder. Right??
Did you know I’m half
Anorexic?
I don’t throw up, but I
Look at myself in the mirror and
See 300lbs or lard.
Well I ever feel pretty,
Confident, loved, embraced
Truly happy, or am I doomed
Forever???
Thanks For Listening
-Gray Wolf-