these Feelings…

I’ve Been alone, I’ve never been hurt, Never been played. Never Thought I Would lose the Game. but When he came into the Picture…. My whole World Turned around…

for Years and Years I’ve been alone, I Accpected this. to me, it was ok. I liked to be alone. years and years passed, I was still in my Dark room. Usely Siting in my corner, Or lying down on the floor. I always looked up to the Stars, And the moon, it was always so Beautiful. One Night, I was Tired of my Room, And wanted to Explore a little. So I went out to A dance at the Hall. There were lots of People. And there were lots of old Friends of mine. “hey Vicky, How are ya sista?”
“hey Cindy, I’m pretty good…… How long has it been since i was last out?” “Hmm….. 10 years???….” I gave a little smile. “hey vicky, That guy over there is checking you out!”
“who is he?” “my Cousin.. his name is Jordan.” “oh” I looked over to where he was, When i saw him, I think My heart Stopped for a bit. From the moment i laid Eyes on him, I loved him. He seemed so…. I don’t know… But I knew He was human, he had that Sparkle in his eye that all Humans have,… “he’s Human….. Don’t Bite him..” I walked over to him, Flicked my Hair, Smiled, And said hi. He Smiled back, I felt like i was Melting. ” I’m Vicky,,,” “shes PuppyGurl!!!” Yelled Cindy as she Ran over. “hey Cindy, Wass up?” Jordan Said in a low Voice. “nothing much, Just Chilling….” she Answerd. “so your the Leagendary PuppyGurl?” “Leagendary? since when Have i Been Leagendary?” I asked . “I told the stories of you while you slept. you know, When u Ruled The streets, And had everyy one in line. Every one Feared you Vicky. Then you had to Go Have ur little nap.” Said Cindy. “How old are you Vicky?” asled Jordan,.. “1300 years old.” I answerd.. “hahaha. Very Funny… so your 13?” said Jordan.. I don’t know why they didn’t believe me…. it is my age…. “yeah. I guess so.” I answerd. “well I’m 14.” Jord Said. “Intersting.” I said. I didn’t know what else to say, “Hey VIcky!~!” It was a Voice I knew my Whole life… “Muttio!!!!!! where are you???!?!?” “over here”. I ran to him as fast as i Could, “i missed you so much Cousin!” “come! you must see Cindy and Jordan.” “who the Hell is Jordan?” ” he’s my New friend. I like him alot.” “jezz. u and guys. Can’t u stay Single for at lest 15 years?” ” oh shut up mutt! lets go see them” I dragged him. mut was 1400 years old, He was older then me, But I was stronger Wiser, And A hell lot better looker then him. we got back to Jordan and Cindy. Cindy is just a month older then me, But for Some rEason I was stronger then all of them, and i Was wiser to. To me it was Strange. them, they just made up some Crap that I was Ment for something and that I was Very Inportant. I was Born a Daywalker. So. That means I can survive in the Sun. Day walkers are Very Rare. I had all the
strength of a vampier, but none of the Weakness’s. just the Thrist for blood, but i Didn’t REally need blood. I didn’t REally like Being Diffrent from My friends.they Teased me, But some how i would get them back. “hello, who are you?”
“I’m Jord an,” Jord Anwerd, “Lets go out for Pizza!!!” I said, While we were walking, Mutt didn;t want to stand Never Jordan, Cindy Didn’t like Walking on the inside, So I had to stand between Jordan and Mutt, Cndy stood On the other side of Jordan, When we got there, I sat down And ate my Pizza Quickly. Jordan sat Beside me, and gave me a note, It Said *Hey Vicky, i was wondering if you would like to go out with me some time… My Number is ### #### . * When i finshed Reading it, he was looknig at me, I just Nodded my head up and Down, He smiled and Countinued to Eat his Pizza. After a Few Hours of walknig around, Cindy Wanted to Ditch to go home, And so Did mutt, So they left. There was just me and Jordan left. I didn’t know how the town looked like now, So i asked him to show me around. He said sure, After a While of talking AND walking We Ended up making out. When I Was with him, I felt, Happy, Warm, Safe, Happy, I felt things I never thought were REal. I wished that night would never end. I was making my Way to his neck, But I remember I told Cindy I wouldn;t bite him, “I know what you are” He said, “how?” I asked, “The Storeis, the Storys Tell of a Girl, a Lonely Girl Who lives in the Slience of the Darkness, A girl who looks nothing like A Vampier, A girl Thats Acts nothing like a Vampier, a Girl With a heart Colder the a Vampier, A girl, Who looked like a Angel, But had the Heart of a Dark Angel.” jordan Replied, “haha,,,, The Stories are Silly. ” I said, “are They? Those Storys Are Heart braking, Scary, those Storys are things no one could Ever Think of in there Wildess Dreams. ” Jordan Was starting to make a little sense. “so? I had Some Bad days,” I didn;t think he knew much of me,but the more he spoke , I found out there were Books, And Storys of me Going on Around, Storys Of PuppyGurl the monster, Was i REally a Monster? I wondered. “I know what and who you are..” Jordan told me in a low shaky Voice. He kind of sounded scared, unsure. I could even Smell the Fear off him, He was scared of me, “if
you Know me so much, And you know What I am, you should Know What I do.” I said, I knew he would get Even more Scared After i said that. “you Steal peoples lives, Some times you Save them, And they Become the Walking Dead, Or you let them Die, And you Watch them die, don’t you?” Jordan ASked, “It Entertains me when I’m bored, you should see How Much they Scream, It’s like music to my Ears.” I answerd, “you Caused Pain And Silent Screams, How Can you live with yourself.?” “it’s in my Nature, It’s how i was Born, Raised, and Just how I am.” ” How many people have you Bitten?” Jordan Asked me, I didn;t know how many, there was to many to Count. “to many to Count, I’ve bitten more then my Share, ” ” your a Day walker Aren;t you?” “huh???? How did you know? How do you find out about them?” ” i Studied, I found a book on you, It said what u are, and every thing about you.” “…….why do i feel this way?” I asked, A qustion That has been in my Black Heart Ever since I remeber, “feel like what?’ Jordan
asked, i didn;t know how to Explain. “I feel like, I don’t know, I have Some many Feelings, And there always Hurting me, FRom the inside, ” “it must be Hard..” what Must be Hard?” i asked.. “being you, ” I thought it was a funny Question. ” well it’s easy once you get the hang of it…… I got to go…” With that I ran away. I knew I shouldn;t have. but I felt like Runnin g awawy, cause wheni was with him, The Bad feelings inside me, they feel like there burning. I ran Away from Jordan, to keep him Safe. I knew if i was with him any longer, I would have bitten him, And made him go through hell. I ran all the way home, and when i got there, I fighted with every thing, I hit the wall, I kicked them, I feel down the Stairs, I barely felt like picking my self up, I ran to my room, I fighted the walls even more, Then I feell to the floor, I hit the Floor, with my hands and my feet, I kicked and hit all my might, And for once in my life, I felt like Crying, but I didn’t. The next Night when i woke up, I
Herd Voices, “shes Asleep down stairs, the room looks like hell, I think she was the one who did all this to the Walls, ” It sounded like Cindy…… I went up the Stairs Quitely,, I hid behind the wall so i could listin better, “she has no one at all. She has nothing, She was made to kill, But with out that, She Absoluty Has no purpose. ” it sounded like mutt. But what did he Mean,,,, made? I was Born, I wasn’t `made` ….. “i wonder how it must feel,,, how it must be like, to have Nothing at all to live for,.” It sounded like Jordan… “i wonder if that was the Feeling she was talking about…” jordan said… to me it seemed they must of been there all night… talking about me,,, heh… like if they knew me,,,, “she has Problems, how she looks at things, How she Hears things, how she see’s things, it’s all diffrent FRom how we see it. ” cindy knew me a little i guess. But I was scared, if they Meet the REal me, there life would be a living hell. And i guess my friends ment something to me. i Don’t usely care for others, but when i was talking to Jordan Last night, i just, poured my Heart out…. “one of us has to tell her…” Cindy said,,,,, “Tell me what?” They all looked at me with Fear All Across there faces,. “well is any one going to tell me or are you just going to sit there?” I laughed,
I knew they Were all Scared of me. “Well I’m just Going to Get some Cearel for my self.” I watched them in the Corner of my Eye As i walked away From them to the Fridge to get milk, Cindy Stood up And looked at me with sad eyes. She said ” Vicky Come here, you should know, you have the right to, I mean, it;s only the right thing to do.” I walked over to them with my Bowl of Coco puffs,.sat a the Table and ate my Cearel. “well you see Vicky, Your mother died a while ago” I nodded, I knew that Already. “And my Father Was a Day walker, ” “yes. but you see, He killed your mother to make you Stronger, wiser, He killed your mother for you, you see, Your mother was a vampier, And he Expearamented on her, on you. to make you…. a Killing machine. But he Couldn;t finsh the Project. so, thats why Ur so diffrent from us.” I stood up. “why didn;t you tell me this before?” ” we didn;t want you to get hurt,” “how the hell did you know anyways?!?” Jordan stood up, “I’ve read about you, it said so in this book,”
Cindy Grabbed the book From Jordans hand,, “we have to Destroy the Book. it says to much, ” I grabbed the book, But cindy Held on, But I’m Stronger then her, So i just pulled a little and then she Couldn;t hold it any more,. “i want to REad it First.” I sat Down Eating my coco puffs WHile REading the Book…… Cindy and mutt Grabbed for the Book, “were trying to help you!” They were pulling on the book with all there Strength, even with mutt and Cindys Strength put together, i was still able to hold the book with Ease. I had pitty on them, So i left go, Cindy Had the book, Turned to ther Last Page and said, This is what Your susposed to do. There was a picture a A girl, She had a Chain Around her Neck, a man That was tall and strong was holding the other end of the Chain, The Girl was killing everyone in sight, Humans, Vampiers, Animals, Every thing . there were Bulidings on Fire, The sun and the moon were out at the Same time, it was a sad Picture, The girl must of been strogner then the man, but fro
some REason she looked as if she was under a spell, “that Girl is susposed to be you.” “it could never be me, I don’t take orders from anyone.” “vicky when you were Younger you killed your father Cause he tried to hurt us.” “,……. I killed my own father,?” “yes Vicky, You did it for us, here look at this..” she Changed the page to a page with a small Picture and lots of writting, the setence Cindy Pointed to said, The Child named Vicky , Had become Stronger then her father and killed him, she is very Dangerous, Iaughed, Cindy Threw the book into then Fire place, “vicky How can you laugh? this is your life were talking about here,” I didn;t want to listin, I was getting thirsty, And i ran out of coco puffs. “I’m going out to get something to eat,. any one else want to come?” “me” Jordan stood up, “no!!!” Cindy Yelled, When she feeds some times she loses control of her self, And will Drink from every Human she can Find until she if filled. And if that happens while your around, well, “it’s okay. I just want to see how it REally Happens” Jordan sounded Excited, “heh, like a little kid at christmas time. lets just all go, it should be fun,”……. while we were walking around mutt, cindy and Jordan walked behind me, As if they were SCared of me….. I saw a Boy. walknig buy us, I knew he was a Vampier, Cause he TRied to bite cindy. He knocked her to the Ground Muttio was just standing around looking stupid, “No!” i yalled, The guy looked atme and jumped to me, I knew he was going to try to bite me. I grabbed his neck while he was in the Air, I looked over to Cindy, she was bitten, I was angery, I looked at him Straight in the eye. “Time to die lil man” He looked at me, He was so scared he pissed him self, “do you know what happens to Vampiers that bother me or my friends, looks at me in the wrong way, gets me angery, or just gets in my way?” he shook his head, Suddenly i remembered him, I was the one who bited him, “Time to say bye bye” he looked at me, I crushed his neck and then dust flew from his
body, thats what happens to Vamiers that die, THey Exploded, THey exploded into dust. I turned to Cindy, “you Going to be okay?” “….I….Just…..Need……some….Blood……” “okay, I’ll find you a human, you guys stay here, Keep her safe.” I ran off as fast i could, I saw a human at a store Eating chips. I grabbed his arms and dragged him all the way to Cindy, i held his arms behind his back, he was crying like a baby,. she Drank alot from him, when she was done she tried to get to her Feet. but fell. “just rest a bit.” I looked around, I saw a Group of people, They were far, they were looking at us. I knew they didn;t know who i was, I laughed a bit, I whisperd ” mutt, Take a Deep Smell of the Air, theres Some youngsters over there, there Feeding on another Vampier, Whet kind of world are we living in?” “haha, Go teach them, a lesson, ” “Becare full!” Jordan told me, I don;t know what he was thinking but I knew i was Going to be okay. I started to walk there. Once they saw Me comming, THey got up and Started to walk Towards me, THeres Eyes rEd from the Blood. “Little Basterds.” I yelled to them, 3 /9 of them Started to Jog Towards me. “your all mothafuckers man, ” I Shouted, 3 more Began to Run, “Feeding on other Vampiers,… What the fuck is Wrong with you? I’m going to have to Teach you a Lesson, u lil sisys.” I Yelled. THe REst Began to Run, In a matter of Secounds i would be Fighting for my lifew with 9 Vampiers, But i’m a Hell lot Stronger then them, one Jumped at me, Looked like he Tried to get my Neck, I hit Him away with my Hand, I continued WAlking, the 1st guy Was like Swatting A fly. the Next one was still running when he was a few inches from me, I kicked him in his tummy, He Flew a Few Feet away, Just like playing with a butterfly. the 3rd One came I Grabbed him by The Troat, I was thinking about Crushing his Troat, But I just Trew him away, 3 Down. 6 more to go, I said to my self. another One Came running to be, My Hand Found my Knife, *swoosh!* Stabbed him in the forhead, *poof* he Blew up, One Vampeier Stoped, and Ran in the other dierection. 4 more. What Fun. I was getting a bit bored of Kill the Naughty Vampiers, So I got my Gun, And shoot them all in the Heads, they All Fell And Blew up. After I was sure No one was Going to Attack me, I ra to the Injured Vampier. THey Almsot Sucked all his blood, I could tell he was suffering. “please,…..make it Stop….Hurting….” He said to me, I stood tall, Pointed my Gun at him, *Bang* I turned my Back on him like how I turn my Back on Every one and Every thing. I walked Back to my FRiends, “have any Fun?” ASked mutt. “A little. THey aren;t any thing But Gangster Wanna Be’s man. ” I answerd. “lets go get pizza” Jordan Said. Sure, I’m up for a Slice!” mutt said, “Don’t mind him, He dosen;t think with his Head, he Thinks with his stomache and His Dick!” Cindy Joked, “lets Get going,” I said. I knew those that Survied my play full Game would be Very Angrey. when WE got there, WE had a EXtra Large Pizza. I had to pay As always. Mutt and Cindy were Shoving pizza in Each others Faces, AS always they Were flirting. “so,,,, How did you Learn to do that?” ASked Jordan. I looked up at him, “do what?” i asked. “What you did Back there, u Totaly kicked there ass’s!” he Said Excitedly. “it was nothing. I do Shit like that all the Time. ” I answerd. “She does!” mutt Said. “All the Time, She Saves our ass’s, She helps us, She kills our enemys….” Cindy added. “how Can you do all that?” Jordan asked. “its’ nothing. ” I asnwerd. “Don’t you Have Family?” Jordan ASked. “uh-oh….”Cindy Whisperd. I Stood up. I didn;t even look at him. I Grabbed my Pizza and my pepsi and I walked out., “errr…” I said to my Self. “Nosiey lil Crap.” i Said to my Self. Again. I could Hear mutt and Cindy Yelling at Jordan. “don’t ever Ask her that!” Cindy Yelled. “you lucky She didn;t kill u right on the spot!” Mutt Yelled, “but I just Wanted to know.” Jordan Said. *Family* it sounded like a Faerie Tale. No one in there Right mind Has asked me About me…. Family. “she Dosen;t Have a
Family,” Cindy Said, “She Left them, to keep them Safe.” Mutt Said. “huh? how? why? when?” Jordan asked, oh, And i Could hear them, I was Right out side the Window. “she left them when She was Young.” mutt said. “she left them So they Won’t Fear her Strength, Her family loved her, But she was Dangerous, And she Knew it.” Mutt said. “She left To keep them Safe. She Hasen;t seen them for about…1000 Years Ago…” Cindy Said. “dosen;t She miss them?” Jordan asked, “I don’;t even think she remembers them.” Mutt said. I remember them Very Well. And I miss them alot to. “Hey, I got an Idea,” Jordan said, “hell no!” I yelled and Ran in side, “don’t you Dare think about it!” I yelled, I knew what he was thinking, “I didn;t even say it Yet!” Jordan Yelled, “I’m not Going to go see them! I left to keep them Safe, From me, I don’t want them to get in to any Trouble. ” I said it with out thinking. then I turned My back on them, And Ran home. I slammed the /door Shut And sat down on a Chair. why did they ring them up? why? I kept Asking my Self. Some how, I found myself, Holding a Phone to my Ear, *ring* “hello?” said a Women, “hi mom, It’s me….. Vicky..” I said, “oh Vicky! Come home,. We all miss you. ” my mom said, “umm,,,” “please vicky, Do it For me, do it for your Brothers. ” she Begged me. “ah… Ok. I’ll be thre Tomoreow.” I said. DUH~! how could i say that??! “oh, Thnak you Vicky, well be waiting for you in the Mourning, bye bye!” my mother Told me, *click* I Dropped the Phone. I had to Travel A Couple of Miles. Like Around..50. First I started to run, I got Half way. and had to Hitch hike the Rest, Fian;ly I looked upon my old home, “I’m home….” I told my Self, I Ran to the Door, Mom! Baby Shane! Lyndon! I’m home! ” I yelled as I came in the Door Way, I saw Baby Shane Playing with Some Spyder Man Toys. Lyndon Was playing ps2. Mom was cooking. “Sister!” Baby Shane Yelled, “Victoria!” lyndon Jumped And ran Towards me, “oh, Honey!” my mom Said, they All hugged me, It felt kinda Werid. “do you Remeber u Step Dad?”
My mother ASked, “yes mom, is he Still with us.?” i asked. “no. he died in a car Crash.” my mom said, no…. the only man I ever Trusted was dead, My step father died? how? “why didn’t you tell me?!?” I asked Angerly. “cause we never got to talk to you.I’m sorry Honey, But he didn;t suffer, ” my mon said, Hate and anger filled me up again. I hate Life,. I thought to my Self. My Family os Emortale. There not Vampiiers. they just Never died. Butmy Step father Was mortal. my real Father was a Vampier. some how, I became the only known Day walker. I was the Stronesgt Breed of any kind of life so Far, THe Most Rarest in thw World. and I’m plaing on keeping it that Way. “well. Whats for Supper?” I asked Trying to Change the Subject, After a Few DAys with my Family.I left them. knowing THey began to wonder About me. when I got homw I laid on my Bed, I twas Dark, I didn;t want to see. I didn’t want to see the Crule World. But i wanted to see Jordan. but i was on my Room, and it wasn;t likely for him to be there. I
Had to thank him. If it wasn;t for him, I wouldn’t Have Vistied my Family. I was just lost with thought. Suddenly i senced some one there, I could smell them, I could hear There Heart Beating. I could Hear there Blood Going through there Body, through there Veins. I kept my eyes Close. “Hello Jordan.” I said, I knew it was him. “u didn’t even Open ur eyes and u knew it was me.” he joked, I opened my eyes, how Alive he looked, So Fragile. oh how I love him, “vampiers and Humans have diffrent Smells, and Sounds.” I told him. “thank you. I said Quitely. “For what?” he asked, He put his Arm Around me, now I knew where he was. “reminding me I had a Family. I went to see them.. I want to Thank you.” I said. “i know one way you Could Thank me, ” he said, I could feel him Putting his Arms Around me, Holding me tight, “hehe, And what Would that be?” I asked. “a night with you.” He answerd. I opened my eyes, He was Right in Front of me. I saw his BeautyiFull Eyes, “if u spend the night with me, I’ll Have to Kil you.” I tried to sound Serious, “lets go walking then,” he Said, “How About, I go to Sleep, and if your here Tomoreow, I’ll spend the Day with you Anwering What ever Crazy Questions you might have,” I said, “Deal!” He yelled. well i went to sleep. when I woke up, I woke up in his Arms, He was still asleep. I just rested until he would wake up. when he did Wake up, I spent the Day with him, he was curious About me, every thing about me Seemed intersting to him. The sun was Shining, THe Birds Were singing. I I don’t usely go out during the Day. But i did for Some REason. Maybe so I cold be with Jordan, and Just Jordan. after a Few Quetions He told me What life was, And other thingz. To me. He was trying to Change me, Or Tame me, But that Would Be impossible. He Changed my life some how, just by talking to him, He had Changed my lifeForever. some how He had put some Hope in my Heart, Maybe some day, I’ll See my step father again. Maybe , my family and my Friends and me Could all live together Happily. with my
step father. I think I was the Only vampier in Hisrtoy to Have hope or a Dream, But I know I’m the Only day walker, And Jordan in the Only one who can have my Heart. we dated for a while. we Brokw up, but were Still friends, Now when were all Hanging out. Were just a Bunch A friends Having Fun. But I love him. All these Feeling are most likely going to kill me. But as long as My famoily and Friends Need me, I’m going to suffer for them.