I am a cutter,and i always try to push the blade down a little harder just to try and die but something in me stops it.I have tried to commit suicide 20 times and almost die on 2. i never wanted this life i never wanted to be born cant i just die and yet after i die will i not hurt anymore? i never know and i am so alone no one knows i cut it is like trying to keep a murder secret it never happens.I know they see the scars on my arms they have walked in on me when i was cutting but all they say is “what are you doing” as if they do not know maybe they like to pretend that i am a perfect child.
I am not.I guess i screwed up their plans and i am sorry.
I have cut and drank the blood and i have walked out with blood on my lips just to see if they even care enough to notice.They dont even look at meI know they know i am a cutter and a vamp at that but why do they not speak the last time i laughed that i can remember was about a year ago that was when i didnt cut but i was a vamp
I AM SORRY I M NOT PERFECT MAYBE YOU CAN STILL LOVE ME????