Through my eyes…

nobody cares about anything, why should they?
as long as they eat and sleep, everything is okay
and i still sit here, day after day
wondering why god created me, if only to rot and decay
is there a reason? some kind of wisdom? nobody can say
i have sampled all religions, none of them makes sense, none can be my safety bay
then punish me for being im-perfect god, even though u created me that way
who am i to question you? after all everything dies and only you stay
in ur majesticness, watching everything but staying away
why let us suffer? why create us only to send us to hell? why this form of cruel play?
for even though we try to be saints, and sit next to our bed and pray
we all make mistakes, we are not perfect, sooner or later we will stray
will you be waiting? to toy with our souls like burning an ant in an ash tray?
or will you be merciful? and send us to heaven as you may?
i love you but i hate you god, for not making me see things your way
for making me different, special. unable to live like an animal as the rest of the world today
this is my from of prayer god, please have mercy on my soul and help me understand, i am waiting for what you have to say