the thought of you gone now is a bit to much…..i know that it was so that i could live to the best the abilities that may be possible…but that is a load of shit….its not like its in the best intrest of me anyways……just when i thought that i had a toe on the brink of reality….i might have moved too quick trying too hard to jump to the ground that i got swayed and look at me now…you cared so much about that bull fertalizer such as me smiling once in a while and living with a famiy that seemed to care that in all the gestures and pushes you made for me to embrase them you some how stepped back…and i cant seem to grasp that as much as i should have…and to tell you the truth i dont want to….i know that it wasnt just that…..the part about us being forbidden to be together also pushed us aswell….i was so damn scared of them not wanting me anymore that i forgot how long it took them to want me in the first place and the part that hurt the most was that i wanted them to like me so much that i let you go….now i cant even go back down that road with out thinking of you…..and maybe i didnt help as much as i should have… maybe it was all my fault…i was so scared that you being sick in the first place would seperate us that i wasnt thinking about petty stuff breaking us apart….and they have…..all i can do is think about who is with you now….who has the chances that i dont to tell you how sorry i am for being a complete idiot…..and i am sorry…..
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you might know what i am talking about if you have readt the story damaged wings….look it up….