To the shining star in the blackened sky,
To anyone near me, hear my cry,
I need to feel the need to live,
Before I have no more to give,
To the howling wind in the cold night sky,
To the wandering stranger who looks in my eyes,
The tears are forming, falling fast,
The darkness coming, strong and vast,
To the hidden stream in the forest deep,
My tears could drown me when I weep,
I feel alone and meaningless,
Exiled and a reject of any caress.
My heart is just a blackened hole,
My mind is gone, beyond control,
My throat is dry and hollowed out,
My lungs are tight, but I need to shout.
If only I wasn’t within closing walls…
I might reply when someone calls…
I’m ugly and useless and I cannot stop.
When at last I fall asleep, I will keep waking up.
Someday I’ll gather my life,
And take it away,
So I won’t feel guilty,
For not thanking God,
For
another
fucking wonderful
day.