ok,short review of my life,i get depressed,i cut,i hate most people in my life,and one more thing,i drink.well,not often.about 2 weeks ago i made the biggest mistake in my life.i waited til my mum n sis were out the house then got drunk,not totally drunk….i
had 3 shots of vodka,unmixed,37%alcohol,i lot for me considering my age…i totally couldnt see,couldnt walk and yet my mum didnt notice when she got home.IS SHE FUCKING BLIND? or does she just not care? i was hungover the next morning at school,quite a few people noticed.the next night,i did it again,had another 3 shots.i puked 3 times.but dont misunderstand me,im not alcoholic.
What do you want people to say to this post?? Do you want us to tell you that you’re a fool. Or do you want us to tell you we understand and we’ve all been there?
I don’t think getting drunk 2 nights in a row classes you as alcoholic. I don’t think it classes you as anything really – other than believeing the myth that alcohol makes you feel better.
HOw old are you hun?
I guess you live and learn. Alcohol isn’t the answer. Next time you go for the bottle just ask yourself if it made you feel better last time around, i think the answer will be no. Theres no point.
As for your mum not noticing, i bet quietly she did notice, parents always do. You’re lucky in a way because most parents would have gone ape shit!
There are other ways, try talking about your problems, and believe me, things will get better, they always do.
Love and respect
Vixodus
xx
i have to agree with vixodus. it isn’t going to do anything until you solve the problems behind it. what did not being able to walk solve? absolutley nothing.
–mourning
lol vix you finally said something i can’t dispute. I’m not sure if I should congratulate you or call the men in white coats. Anyway, um yeah, what she said …
Are we supposed to be impressed? Sympathetic? No … I’m not either. I think it’s a stupid thing to do and I also think your mom noticed. She probably didn’t want to impound whatever problems you have already with yelling. It’ll probably come up in conversation sometime soon …
By the way, I don’t drink anymore. I used to alot, used to spend half my life with my best mate dom getting completely shitfaced. Erm … then I grew up. It fixes nothing … and when your opportunity to make something of yourself finally comes along, you don’t want to miss it because you’re busy rinsing puke out of your teeth.
I know it feels like all the shit goes away for a while, but it just comes back. And when it comes back it comes complete with a killer headache. So how is that better?
You may not be an alcoholic, I believe that, but be careful. You might become dependent, it’s happened to stronger people than you.
Byezee Dam
I love alcohol. Its almost the same feeling as a clean knife getting through man flesh. Many people wants to be on the “drunk” level, and that’s the usual reason thye want to get drunk.
If I were you, I’ll stop living a lie of a life. Be yourself, live your life. Don’t go living in a alcoholic dream world. There is no sense getting drunk. It won’t stop your worries.
Carry on drinking… it’s the only thing that will keep you going until drugs take control, and then it is death from there. Anything to get you out of reality is enough to make the final times bearable…
surreal don’t talk shit. no offense, i respect your opinion but sometimes you’re just wrong.
hey how old r u i dont no loads about all this cus i’m only youngish well 14 but as everyone else said u shoodnt drink away ur problems it doesnt work i av had my fair share of problems so far in my life and as i neva turned to selfharm i neva turned to drinkin ur mum obviously new u had problems and didnt want to increase them so she left u or maybe she wanted to see if u will learn ur lesson that drinkin isnt the answer i no thats summit my mum wood do cus they have the wierest way of workin ok it’s advisable not to do it again cus u cood drink to much one night nite and die cus ur to pissed to turn ova or summit and choke on ur own spew harsh but true k –xxx
I’m sorry, but when i read this i first thought, man how old is he/she??? you’re just as old as my little brother for goddess sake, if you ask me yer only trying to figure yourself out, what do i want, do i want alcohol, cuts, attention (from yer mother, for instance)
i think there’s nothing wrong with that, but don’t instantly think you’re an alcoholic or something…
alcoholism is a disease. it’s mainly inherited, and some alchoholics never know that they are because they never started drinking.
you may be a binge drinker, but i don’t think three shots of vodka makes the quota. hell i drink more than that on a lonely saturday night (not an every saturday occurance, just once in a while).
Seriously man, you just seem to me, to be a typical trashy dickhead, who does whats in the ‘bad book’ just to bitch about their problems to people. It disgusts me how many young adults resort to scarification and self-induced depression. Sure, I cut when I’m really angry or hurt, but announcing “Bakround chek!, I cut! bitch bitch bitch!” is real gay. Three shots and you think your an alcholic? I could piss my self laughing at the lamity (copywrite ticktears 2001) of that statement. Three shots isn’t even worth commenting about, let alone stating “I drink, look at me, I’m hard fucking core”. I’ll shut up to avoid the backlash of “leave him alone” remarks, but there can’t be a solution if there isn’t even a god damn problem, loser.
Seriously man, you just seem to me, to be a typical trashy dickhead, who does what’s in the ‘bad book’ just to bitch about their problems to people. It disgusts me how many young adults resort to scarification and self-induced depression. Sure, I cut when I’m really angry or hurt, but announcing “Background check!, I cut! bitch bitch bitch!” is real gay. Three shots and you think your an alcoholic? I could piss my self laughing at the lamity (copy write thicktears 2001) of that statement. ‘Three shots’ isn’t even worth commenting about, let alone stating, “I drink, look at me, I’m hard fucking core”. I’ll shut up to avoid the backlash of “leave him alone” remarks, but there can’t be a solution if there isn’t even a god damn problem, loser.
right…and I tried to say it nicely =) but it really all comes down to what thicktears’s saying. the ‘bad book’, nice expression, seems like everone’s got a copy these days.
Well, if you look in the profile of Lets_go_kill you’ll find he’s born in 1990, surprise, is that real?? Of couse 3 shots would be a lot for this person. . . what do I think of all this??? Shouldn’t be doing it in the first place, shame on you, pity too for someone so young to act like that.
I’d rather see you post your depression here on Darkness rather than try and drown it in strong spirits. It’s just plain foolish for your age. At least here you can get it out here rather than try and hide it. We’re listening, there are others here in the same situation, or similar to yourself who know….
this doesnt really make a difference but it’s she, not he
and yeah,i realise that some of the things ive done so far in life are really stupid but its done now and i cant change that. i stopped the drinking, it doesnt help, it just feels worse. for the people that seem to think the cutting is attention seeking, you’re wrong,i have my reasons and only people closest to me like my bf know about it.
everybody says “you don’t understand, i have my reasons, i’m different.” BULLSHIT. sorry but it is.
What reason is it that you cut? And what makes you so arrogant that you think nobody else on here has been through it just like you are?
I’m 20 (give or take) alright, and I’ve seen way more than my fair share of shit. And it aint easy, it never is, but if you can’t take what the world’s dealing out to you, you don’t need to add the pain you give yourself. Nobody needs that, they just think that they do.
The good part is, you’ll almost certainly get over it, and you’ll realize that you’re the one who doesn’t understand shit about life. Not really. Not yet.
Later
everybody says “you don’t understand, i have my reasons, i’m different.” BULLSHIT. sorry but it is.
What reason is it that you cut? And what makes you so arrogant that you think nobody else on here has been through it just like you are?
I’m 20 (give or take) alright, and I’ve seen way more than my fair share of shit. And it aint easy, it never is, but if you can’t take what the world’s dealing out to you, you don’t need to add the pain you give yourself. Nobody needs that, they just think that they do.
The good part is, you’ll almost certainly get over it, and you’ll realize that you’re the one who doesn’t understand shit about life. Not really. Not yet.
Later
lol fuck, hate when it does that