Trust is fragile

This is the first time i have ever written one of these before so yeh

Trust is the topic a shall write about because it is something i lost in every thing and everyone i know.

Trust is a very fragile thing something broken so easily and takes a long time to repair

i had my trust broken along time ago atleast 6 monthst ago and still i do not trust anything any one says to me know unless i already knew the truth

i know you all may say i am just being paranoid but i am not the only one who thinks like this

my trust was broken over a 2 month period of time where i was lied to and made an idiot of by a guy who i thought i could trust and a few close friends who helped him break it

He told me untruths till they were coming out of my mouth

Then i believed him now i know better

But now its too late my trust has been broken and i have no trust in any one now

Every time i arrange to do something with someone i expect them not to show up

i have stopped going places because i think people will make me look stupid by standing me up
i have not gone out with any guys since then because i have no trust of them and expect to be cheated on

i also have a huge commitment problem because of this

i also have become easily depressed

I hope that not too many of you have had to go through what i have been through

My advice to you is trust those who you have know for ages and be weary of those you have not

Trust is too fragile to play with

TRUST:(a poem)

i thought i could have trust

i thought i could believe

but you had to abuse my trust

And its ruined because i believed

You fucked it up

you are to blame

you never give up

even fucking up my life today

i know you enjoy it

don’t you lie to me

don’t do this

because i know you don’t care about me

i hate you

So leave me alone

don’t make me love you too

Please just don’t be you

Vixen

By Vixen

hello i am the Dark Angel if n e one ever gives me shit and or says im not or tells me to remove this from my profile should go * themselves Watch ur back Vixen

8 comments

  1. I thank you for sharing as well. I know it wasn’t easy.

    Unfortunatly, betrayl of trust is becoming more common. You definatly are not alone. I’ve been there too.

    I choose to keep my faith in man. I keep getting burned, but better burned than bitter. Don’t let another’s faults destroy your spirit. Don’t let them win.

  2. I moved to a different state with someone, and that person seemed to have changed their mind about something en route, and my negative life condition (at that time) was manipulated and worked to an advantage of that person that made me look like the bad guy to their friends and mine. They stole things from me that I had had for many years prior to this relationship, and I have yet, four years later, to retrieve the rest out of storage from there. I returned home and started over, rebuilding a life that had been destroyed and left to die. But I still go on — with hatred when I think of that person, yes — and with a slower move to my steps, perhaps, but to close yourself off from this life because of one shithead that took you for your trust and your belief in the goodness of people, your belief in the fairy tale of life, is no reason to shut yourself down and live in darkness forever. Come out and find the good ones, and stand with them, laughing at those who use others, for they are miserable, they are jealous, they are petty, because they have nothing but ill thoughts in their minds and sickness in their hearts, and do not really know how to live in happiness. They would only like to make you miserable — and god knows I hate cliches — but misery loves company. But so does joy.

  3. Vixen, I think that way to many people can relate to you on this point…..I myself am still struggling with someone whom I love more than he knows. I do all that I can for him…..I try to show him that I still care….he pretty much lives with me which only makes things harder….but he needs me and although he doesn’t know it….I need him. I can only hope that although now things are completely plutonic they will progress….I cannot shake the feelings he stirs in me….the only advise I can give is forgive and forget….but don’t let them back in…You can forgive them without being near them….People do some really fucked up things. The nice people are always the ones being fucked over and hurt by those on a destructive path. I hope that your situtation improves and that you meet someone that you feel is very worthy of you and your trust. Best wishes in all…..remember live for yourself, no one else. Make yourself happy and then you will find someone that makes you happier while you are making them happy.
    smooches
    Raven

  4. Vixen~
    I know how you feel. My trust was broken at a very young age by a family member wo sexually abused me. It shows you not to trust your own judgement, and not trusting yourself is the worst.
    However, not eveyone is like that. I mean you’re not so that suggests that there are others out there, right? Remember that no one is perfect, and sometimes when people don’t come through for you it is not intentional and may not be a reflection of how they feel about you. Take care and be cautious, but never let those clueless pricks take away your joy, your ability to feel- because then and only then they have won (and made you more like them than you may realize).
    Blessed be grrl…
    ~Eva

  5. Though i know you will not trust someone you have not even met, you wrote a good poem, as for the guy, he sounds like a dickhead and your better off without someone that will try to control you and make you into their little puppet and personal village idiot. if you feel hate towords your former friends and this guy, use that hate to your advantage, imagine everyday, thier lives being turned to shit, them statying insdide to advoid be made a fool. that will help you a little bit so you can try to get yourself back togather. now your telling yourself right now, :he is probebly lying to me, trying to make me feel like shit anddeciave me” think bout this first, why would i,someone that doesn’t even know who you are, where you live, what you do with your life, lie to you? had enough of that bullshit, nearly cost me my head.
    do what you will, but, don’t let anyone change you to where you don’t even recognize yourself.

    Yours in Darkness – Drave

  6. Thanks for your comment
    it helps to know there are people who care etc
    Vixen

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