I wept for you once, I blame me
But you’re the one that got it back times 3
I wept for you twice, that’s your fault now
I said I loved you once, and I don’t know how
You were gonna be the excuse for my life ending
Maybe the excuse for the life that was pending
The I realized you’re not worth anything of mine anymore
Your love shoulda been great but instead it was a chore
Now death seems fun and great to me
You didn’t care, you wouldn’t see
You didn’t love me that was a lie
I shed a tear for you, u made me cry
I was blinded by love, how stupid of me
Through your lies I was disabled and couldn’t see
My loss turned to hatred quite fast
You made me forget my screwed up past
But when you left it all came crashing back to me
Ten times harder for me to see
I almost ended it I swear I was going to
Then I realized it wasn’t about you
Ok so I loved you, I couldn’t help that now
I just said I loved u, still don’t know how
Standing in the bathroom blood on the floor
A chair blocking the entrance way to the door
I look down at my bare and bloody arm
How your lies seemed like charm
Then I woke up from my dream
And noticed you weren’t what you had seemed
Prince in shining armor…nope not anymore
Fearful parents beating on the blocked door
“what’s wrong we can help you”
HA, that’s what you think, I’m past help, its through
Stupid parents leaving sharp things around
Nice deep bathtub, maybe I should “accidentally” drown
Why do I think like this my life’s okay as I’m told
I wish they knew the secrets I hold
They couldn’t know, they would just send me away
Should just get it over with and shorten my stay
I don’t have the courage, I cant do this right
Just another losing fight
Oh well I’ve surprised myself before
Maybe I should go unlock the door
NO, that wouldn’t work, I cant do that now
I need to explain this, but I don’t know how
Started with you, ending with me
All because u simply couldn’t see
But I don’t blame you that wouldn’t be fair
Because of course it wouldn’t matter you wouldn’t careI don’t understand you and I wont ever
Your forever, turned out to mean NEVER
How would I have guessed how could I have known
Now I just want to die and be left alone
Drip drip drip once more
Again and again onto the floor
Strangled screams echo the halls
Death and dying trapped within the walls
No one else knows about this feeling I hide
No one knows about the part of me that’s died
No one would care to know
No one understands this part of me though
I sit and write about all these awful things
And think of all the relief that death brings
But I couldn’t really go through with it now
I could be brave, but I don’t know how
(Brave and face it, or brave and end it)