I had the perfect Girl friend. Or so I thought. Marcia and I dated for 2 1/2 months the word love was thrown around alot. I loved her with every core of my being. From her I got my first blowjob and she was the first girl I ever fingered. That made her even more important to me to the point that she was all I cared about! I asked her to marry me at our winter prom and she cried and said yes.
Then she dumped me over the phone. She said we did not have the chemistry needed to spend our lives together. My world blew up. I felt like destroying this planet to end my pain. All the Darkness that had enveloped me most of my life came back to me in full force. And with it I felt all consuming anguish and hatred for my pain and my Life. What do I do?! How can I stop this. I need advice. I need help that only those who have felt and harnessed Darkness can have information on. But Most of all I need a good Girl Friend who will never leave me. Please send me your thoughts and tell me what you think.