I look around at night….so many things are beautiful in the darkness, i look inside of myself and i hate what i have become.
Times are getting harder now..i find myself becomeing darker and darker, I am lost in a world full of superfical people, and things. The friends i have, i wonder if they really care about me.. My family, i know that somewhere in their hearts they have some feeling..but i see none when it comes to me. They dont care..they see me and what i was years ago..Their perfect child. now they wish they did not treat me so badly, all the little things they did to me are now building up inside of me. They hate what i have become…a child of the night….a vampire, they see the way i act…and they hate it. they know that it’s their fault, for the way i am, and they try to change me, but they cant. I feel so alone…I want to end my life of constant suffering….but have i done everything in my life that i want to do………………i dont know..i need help…i want to feel love..i want to know what that feeling is like……..