I close my eyes when they’re not near & it’s dark
My fears & doubts come out to play with my mind
They endlessly dance around my head
And I can’t escape them or the pertrified feeling they give me
I think of blood
I think of pain
I think of hurt
I think of tears,
Endless,
Flowing,
Bitter-sweet
tears
These thoughts don’t belong to the soul I show you
These tears
This pain
These razor-sharp, torturing memories
They aren’t hers,
They’re mine
I close my eyes when they’re not near & it’s dark
I realize my agression
Uncurable, hungry agression
Thoughts of beautiful pain
Beautiful death
And I feel that’s what I want
What I need
I close my eyes when they’re not near & it’s dark
My true, stained self comes out
Not the mask
My true self, and it’s dark
It’s dark