Why do I cry?

I am hurting so bad and I don’t know why…
Tears soak my pillow,Is it shameful to cry?

No explanation just searing pain.
My heart,my body and deep in my brain.

The room is spinning around so fast …
and the voices in my head tell me I won’t last.

What is wrong with me?
Why am I so sad?
This is pissing me off and driving me mad.

I still can not explain it and I don’t know why.
So all I can do is put my head down and cry.