I smoke because it’s life
I smoke because it’s death
And I smoke because sometimes it’s the only thing that modivates me to breathe
And I breathe it in
And I breathe it out
And I take it all in
And I take it all on
And it’s more
More than I can take
More than I can bare
It’s more
and more
and more
And it never stops
And it never ends
And I just want to give up
Because there is no finish
No solution
No hope
And I can’t take it
And I wish you could understand
I wish you felt the load
so I wouldn’t feel it all on me
And I don’t want you to give me guilt
but take these words and see me
then help me out because I am stuck within
I just want out
but I am so lost in this
I am so caught up and tangled
This isn’t a poem
This isn’t a letter
This is an apology
I am sorry I gave up
and gave in
but I am asking you
to please help me out
and about
And standing on my own
and walking on the right path
I might just find my way home