Words Of The Confused

Destroying what was once ours

these walls of fire consuming towers

the walls I built with my hungry hate

the walls which have no hopeful gate

no entry for me to help the caged

those within are entrapped and raged

those trapped within the fire

are the feelings I must acquire

to feel my loves touch, once more

but these walls they show no door

no door helps me out to seek

for who am I but the meek

without the one I so adore

the one I love knows me no more

slumber means two things to me

hope for death for me to see

and no matter what I do

I hope for the return of you

to a conclusion I have come

I hate myself, for what I’ve done

the lesions that I shall create

in my heart are all for hate

the pain I wield within my soul

my sorrow, I place on the coal

why can I not be free?

free from, my love for thee.

My bones are breaking, my body aching.

but physical pain to me means naught

as to the teachings that I fought

every man must learn for him

the pain hurts most from within.

opportunity has left, she has flown away

she takes my soul for another day

never for me to love I know

I have failed to learn, so my life shall go.

The sweet surrender of my life

for without you I trust the knife.

My life has no meaning,

uncertainty, lack of feeling

I wish for death to take me now

so no longer I long for thou

I ask, I hope, I wish, I pray

for my life to end today.

the pact which I have made within

my one “special” life, I shall not end

by my own hand I shall not die

so I pray for some random guy

to take my life, in anyway

I pray for this on everyday.

I don’t know what is wrong

the fear helps me write this song

without my hope I have nothing left

free from hassle or from theft

for in my soul now lies nothing

I smile because the end is always coming.

There is no end to my pain and sorrow

except for the one I wish for tomorrow

the inevitable feeling of deaths grip

whilst I sit here biting my lip.

hoping for that one true love

to fly to me like the dove

so I may smile as she sings

while death comes to me on swift wings.

My one true companion on my travel

is my friend death he helps me unravel

this mystery of life, this mystery of why

the ultimate question we ask till we die

to those who live in ignorant bliss

you shall never understand deaths kiss

death is not good, nor is death bad

but it is, the only answer to be had

My life as a human, has been quite swell

but the time has come for me to say farewell

I appreciate those I met on my way

it’s been a while since that fateful day

I was brought into this world in miracle of light

and now I return to the land of eternal night

but color no longer means anything to me

for now I am dead and no color I see

no sounds I can hear, no food I can taste

but death is something I can say I have faced.

nothing I touch, and no roses I smell

that tolling is coming now from MY death bell

no longer I worry, no longer I care

about how my life was so very unfair

I am peaceful now that I am in my grave

I apologies for the mistakes I have made.

for the trouble I caused, I meant no harm

my own selfish wants set off the alarm

do not be sad, there is no sorrow

I made my choice, so you should borrow

my advice to all, which goes like this

please do not live in ignorant bliss

make your choices stand proud and tall

the world is nothing but your own flaming wall

we are all just prisoners in this thing we call life

but life’s what we make it and I chose the knife

to each his own, and to all there choices

the choice I made freed me from the voices.