Looking back on life
Thinking of the pain
I never wanna feel
Again…
Screaming silently
Slamming the door
Making sure it’s locked
Droping to the floor
Muffled words
My eyes shut tight
My breathing gets heavy
Taking out the knife
Blinking twice
Tears linger in my eyes
Holding on tight
No one hears my cries
Wanting it to end
Thinking of mom
Can’t quite cry
Panicked yet calm
Prepared to take my life
Holding the blade high
Making the first cut
Time flashes by
Addicted to the pain
Addicted to the feel
The forth flies by
All to real
Hands shaking desperately
Not able to breath
Eyes shut
End it please
The room is getting foggy
And I’m getting dizzy
The sixth slicing through
Can’t stop, to busy
After the tenth
Blood dripping to the floor
Telling myself to stop
Can’t take anymore
Slipping away
The pain no longer here
No more Anguish
No more fear
I open my eyes
Snapping back to life
Looking at my hand
Dropping the knife
Twelve velvet lines
Dancing on my wrists
Straight then curly
And a few in twists
Light headed
Pools of blood on the floor
Never been this bad
Before…
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